Saturday, December 26, 2009
CHRISTMAS!!!
Best christmas I have ever had so far. Although I got to work in the morning till evening, but manage to spend the rest of the day with baby! Loves! I've got lots of surprises from baby today. Haha. Got my headset which is of limited colour from baby but its one that nobody else have cause it has got my name on it!!! Thanks baby.! Walked around Marina and shop around for gifts for my two sister and off to O'Learys for dinner. Nice nice tenderloin steak I have. Haha. I thought my surprise would have ended with the christmas present and nice dinner and walking around Singapore Flyer, but baby actually bought me Flyer's ticket!!! Trick me to go upstairs see see and still lie to me ask me to queue for the flight without tickets. But im quite dumb and baby manage to make me believe him saying that we will buy the tickets later uh. Haha. Dumb me. Lol. But anyway had a very great day out cause it was just so well prepared by baby!!! Thanks baby! I love you!
*saw this hoodie at Zara while shopping today and it feels so comfortable!!! I want mama to get it for me!!! or... will anyone buy it for me??? HAHA!
baby i love you and i'll never let you go... I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
long time since i last updated my blog...
anw time for me to grumble and complain...
not abt school although im quite stress up now with all the new modules and the changing of class everyday...
well... you are just not the typical bf tht every girl wants... and whtever you do not like or want to do is just what a typical bf shld have done...
for the least to be able to love their gf much much more...
its not that i wanna compare you with the other guys..
but that is how its suppose to be like..
take it, learn it, apply it...
leave it, heck care and you will lose everything.
im quite serious about that...
i need a bf who will try to talk things out with me when im angry, wouldn't just ignore me and let things be the way it is...
when im sad try to cheer me up and make me laugh... or just keep quiet and lend me your shoulders for me to cry...
when im really stressed give me possible, reasonable solutions and not some retarded idea...
when im really busy try to fork out some time to fetch me from school or work...
thats the least you could have done... but you did none..
yea fetch me from school like what once in a dunno how many months...
oh pls...
always giving empty promises and busy with things that are seriously seeing no future in it...
its not that i dun wanna talk to you...
but we dun have a similar topic...
you go to whtever temple which i don't and i go to school which you don't...
or you telling me i shld quit school and always go ard to all the temples so that we have a common topic? and then next time i will be at the roadside sweeping the road... how interesting...
you say that all these things is boring, very sian...
but you still go wht... still say until as if it is so bloddy f-ing interesting wht... so i really dun see which part of it is boring or sian for you...
and dun want to go... leg is yours, body is yours... you don't want to go ppl will take knife or gun point at you meh... no wht...
den obviously you have the right to choose whether you want or not wht... since its like that then why didnt you do so..
cause i cnnt understand your situation right..
i know..
thats what you always say wht...
but the past few sentence all you teach me one sia..
why so contradicting..
lol.
no hugs, no kisses, no love... den wht are bf for?
i know will only hug me at home mah...
wht era wht century liaos... still at home lei... wlaos...
Anyway, lastly, my korkor... thx for rushing down to find me once i called you crying. im sorry to have made you worried eh. promise there wont be a next time. im really glad to see you when i needed someone beside me. Thanks! (: you truly made me feel better.
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Saturday, September 12, 2009
I just suspect tht I am suffering from depression...
LOL.
my family is so screwed... Dad is a hopeless piece of shyt...
He is one bloody bastard who is so irritating...
Momma... scolds me when she is in a bad mood when i nvr do anything wrong...
Scolds and blame me when Dad does something wrong or pissed off...
what has all those got to do with me?
Im so bloody innocent, i mean all those things that she scold me for has got nth to do with me...
and bf...
its just getting more and more difficult for me to communicate with him...
can someb0ody help me???
Momma!
just stop irritating me about bf alrights..
give me a break...
i know he is good for nothing, lazy and always dun want to work...
i know you are asking me to leave him for my own good...
i know because you find tht he dun care for me, he dunno how to be nice to me and don't know how to love me...
but can you just stop...
this is just making me very tired...
i also tried to leave him ah...
not like i never...
but i can't wht...
I know alot of ppl say not worth it...
cause i can find much better guys...
but i just can't do it ah...
no matter how much i hate him, how angry and sad am i with him...
still can't ah...
I really tried le...
I really tried my very best le...
I tried to change him to treat me better but it just doesnt work ah..
let me hurt myself and i will leave him kaes...
let me kill myself...
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Friday, September 11, 2009
Long time since i last blogged...
well...
im blogging because I have no where to vent my anger on...
dammit...
why is some people just so irritating...
just can't get out of my life...
so f-ing pissed off can...
I REALLY HATE YOU!!!
fuck off pls...
you spoil my life, spoil my r/s...
bloody retard...
argh..!!
I DON'T LIKE YOU! I DON'T LIKE YOU! I DON'T LIKE YOU!
when i say it three times i mean it...!
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Thursday, August 20, 2009
never see you today...
felt weird and sad...
i hope to see you everyday can? pls...
some matters that i really need to settle soon...
its really time for me to spend some time thinking about whats been going on...
how i am going to deal with you...
i need to sit down alone clear my mind and just think of the problem...
to think if you are meant for me and what is really suitable for me...
well... some problem i really dun want to face but if i don't its wasting my time and also yours...
we'll see how it goes bah...
on some days i really dun feel like im in your world...
it just feel like you have so many things that i don't know that you are hiding from me...
I sent you an sms ask you what you would steal from me... i was with you and you said you want to steal my heart...
you didn't reply in sms and didn't send me the msg...
but if i could steal something from you i would really want to steal your heart...
i want to steal the whole of you...
but well you said you need your friends or you have no life...
what else can i do... i want to change you...
but... its impossible...
quit school, full-time job...
guess thts wht you have alr decided on...
you often lie to me tht make me dun believe you at a point of time and i lied to you tht now you dun believe me as well...
so much lies in r/s... i just wonder if we can move on further...
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Sunday, August 9, 2009
my life is full of surprises...
bad surprises...
it can just happen and over within 3hrs...
and within that 3hrs... i spend $2k...
in the end i got nothing...
i could have bought so many things and paid for so many other bills with that money...
dammit...
im hate my family more cause of all the shit that i get at home...
dad
is a total nuisance and useless shit...
always giving us problem...
but he is the one who is always so proud and thinks he does alot of things for the family...
pls..
if not because of mum you wouldn't have anything today...
seriously i can't wait for the day when you fuck off from my life...
maybe mum and me would be better off without you...
you are just a freaking troublemaker wasting our money thinking we have a lot of money for you to waste...
continue smoking but i just hope you won't die of smoking...
or i won't even feel sad for you...
you don't worth my pity...
and you have no right to talk at home..
so i would really wish next time when you are home you just shut your mouth sit there watch tv and sleep..
if not get out of the house...
cause i dun welcome you at all...
you can jolly well find a new house which i suppose you have...
so dun stick to us just because we have the money for you...
who knows if we give you the money and you spend it on somebody else...
and in front of family and friends i would really try not to have you in the topic cause i can't think of anything nice to say about you...
and this really show how much you are being a sucker...
you drag me to hell!!!
i will hate you for the rest of my life!
sucks to have a dad like you!
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
why???
I always never get what I want....
you will never give me what i want but i always got to listen and give you what you want!!!!
bloody piece of wood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to do what you want me to do but you would never do what I want you to do.!
Don't say you don't know that im not free today...
if i can say that i can wait for you...
your bloody common sense tells you that im free!!!!!
other ppl can spend every day with their gf only you cant!
ya just because i go out i cant stay at home...
pls la other than your friend's gf and your dearest ex sharoln, no other girl would stay at home every single day alr...
IM DAMN FUCKING ANGRY CAN!!!
YA EVERYTHING MUST BE IN CAPS CAUSE IM REALLY SO AFRAID YOU CAN'T SEE SIA...
YOU ALWAYS CANNOT BE THE ONE TO COMFORT ME ESPECIALLY WHEN IM SUFFERING A WHOLE DAY IN SCHOOL.
CAN HAVE MORE CARE AND CONCERN NOT??????
USE YOUR BRAIN THINK WHAT YOU CAN DO AND NOT ALWAYS SAY DON'T KNOW.
I DON'T NEED USELESS ANSWER AND YA THATS WHY YOU ALWAYS DON'T BOTHER TO COMFORT ME CAUSE YOU WILL SAY YOU DON;T KNWO WHAT YOU CAN DO OR SAY TO ME!!!!
WOW. COOLNESS!
WHAT A NICE PERSON SERIOUSLY!
maybe all along we are just a mistake!
you are not special to me anymore. just like my random friends. thats how much you worth.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
a picture of the weird korean seafood set that baby ate today...
LOL.
UT today and i was feeling so tired...
lol
worse still today microecons...
late 1min also cannot...
and ya i was late...
there goes my 0.5 lor..
dunno how to help student one... only know how to follow the rules...
be flexible a bit la...
lol
as usual this module is just so boring and always making me fall asleep...
i just don't like this module eh...
LOL.
anyways after school went to tampines...
walked through all three shopping malls...
went to check price of external hardisk, and also ate dinner before going home...
lol.
Lastly not to forget...
my dearest Kimberly...
yes really never see her for 1 week already...
other than using webcam...
lol
miss her lots already luh...
sister ah when you going to meet me eh...
lol.
must meet up soon kaes...
Love You!!!
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
well short outing with bf today...
suppose to go to cathay to buy my laptop casing...
but the moment i tell him the place...
i know it was quite impossible for me to go alr...
yea... that weirdo doesn't like to go to orchard...
but... cathay is not even in orchard...
its off orchard for sakes...
LOL.
oh well...
stuck to my bloody east side which is so bloody boring...
and going shopping basically is to look at things and even if you dun buy you still can say you feel like buying just for fun...
oh well kno what...
he doesn't like it at all...
totally out of this world...
LOL
yea... going to shopping malls and shop and all different outings just made me have this very strong feeling that we are from two different world that we can't click most of the time...
he just can't accomodate with the outing to orchard not even OFF orchard...
not bugis on weekends...
oh well where else in singapore can we go...
only his house i guess and tampines and pasir ris...
LOL
cause its all near to his house...
we make a big difference and it seems like being together was just wrong...
or maybe i am used to being pampered cause im the only child...
but no matter what you would think for other people although it was my thing and you got to get other ppl in and help them..
oh well...
what is this...
i know i am self-centred... so???
im brought up like that...
i don't know how to share...
and don't try to teach me or ask me to learn cause i will never do so...
sad to say you think more for those ppl ard you and just that little bit for me...
but those ppl that you thought of and ask me to help have they thought of me before...
er i suppose not eh...
lol.
im just being selfish kaes...
i dun like to think for other ppl eh...
and sending you off you just walk off like that eh...
WOW...
best one...
other ppl will help their gf and think for them and care for them and love them and work to earn money for them...
but you...
help me i dun dare to think.... think for me more like think for others around you...
care for me once in a while... love me if you are in the mood eh...
work not for me but ya to clear your friend's debt...
which is so called your debt...
i can really see your effort in loving me eh...
always say im important to you...
but i think when your friend is in trouble they are more important...
ya i know why...
cause i want money to spend... thats why you dun see the need of helping me...
oh well i will never get anything from you eh... going shopping is an offence?
buying clothes is an offence?
just because your previous gf can stay at home, your friend's gf can stay at home and not go out so i must be like them?
why must i be so deprived..
i know... want to go out can... spend my own money and go out with my friends not you right...
cause you won't allow me to buy things cause i need to save money...
for what fuck...
i don't even know when i will die...
save the money to bring into my coffin???
LOL
touch your heart and ask yourself what have you really done for me?
and have you pamper me before?
you know for almost one year the only happy day i rmb was only one pathetic day at plaza sing...
thats was the only day when i was really happy...
and it just ended there...
i don't expect 365 days of that but can i have mojority of the days we spend together to be like that day...
and you work cause you need to help your friend's clear debt... den how about the debt that i owe...
partly was also your responsibility eh...
i had to find money and now i got to clear the debt myself...
but some other ppl you help her pay eh...
dun need me to tell you who i think you know... your beloved one...
everything i got to try to solve it myself...
the other day almost wanted me to go to the clinic alone...
you can think of others can think for me or not?????
HOW I WISH YOU COULD LOVE ME MORE WITH HUGS AND KISSES...
OR MAYBE WE ARE JUST A MISTAKE...
yea cried again upon typing this post...
to my sister KIMBERLY...
really hope that you are with me now...
cause i know you will wipe away my tears and make me laugh...
really miss you la sister..!
must meet up soon kaes...
Love You! :D
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S I A N!!!!!
going work alone lor...
i want ppl accompany me lei...
so sad can...
haiis...
some more after work going to bugis...
den go bugis alone...
thats damn stupid la...
haiis...
my life is so sad can..!
argh...
anyways... as what i have promise...
never see sister for about one week alr lei...
really miss her...
cause she always make me laugh...
even on days when i feel like crying...
kimberly is my best sister la...
haha...
Love You sis!!!!
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