Saturday, May 30, 2009
worked in the morning...
it was so boring cause got no customer...
quite stress cause like got no income ah...
later boss not happy i die...
haha...
went home and fell asleep on daddy's bed...
luckily woke up on time to bath and go out of house...
but credit to baby cause he was the one who bomb my phone and wake me up...
haha...
but he suppose to meet me to accompany me eat dinner and take key from ecp...
end up he got to meet his friends...
LOL.
called mummy on the bus and she also said she is still busy...
can't get away from work yet...
blah blah blah...
yes two of you suppose to eat dinner with me...
but end up all busy...
im left all alone...
thanks ah people...
thanks for being so nice to me...
after taking the stupid shop key.. left ecp...
took a bus back and when i reach home den i realise the door was locked...
i sit there like at 9.50pm...
called mummy at 10 and she said she would reach home in 10min...
end up i waited for her till 11.15...
thanks ah...
from i was very hungry till i got gastric pain...
i waited till i can't feel anything and now i just want to sleep...
im tired...
two people that always disappoints me the most is baby and mummy...
can you all keep to what you say pls...
FREAKS!
2 more days to my BIRTHDAY!!!
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11:14:00 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
didn't wake up late but still took train to school...
i saw your msg asking me to wake you up in the morning...
well i did try to call you but you didn't answer...
i don't know what happen but i decided to go to your house to wake you up...
i mean im alr late for school but i still did...
but when i reach your house you just got to say that im wasting money taking cab to school...
i don't need to wake you up so early and all...
what is this...
can you at least be abit grateful that i came over just to wake you up?
why say till like i did everything wrong...
and when i call you, you just got to hang my call...
the next time i call you at 10 plus you are still sleeping...
you were the one who said you need to go to school today...
you were the one who ask me to wake you up...
but im trying everything that i can to help you but you are not helping yourself...
and worse still you don't even appreciate what i have done for you...
really nothing can describe how i am feeling now...
been waiting for you to sms me since morning but there was none...
this is so disappointing...
it just make me feel so dead...
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3:09:00 PM
late for school today..!
i really hate the feeling of being late...
it just sucks...
well... i can't wake up...
im dying... way too tired alr...
i need a good rest...
very very good rest...
long long sleep will help alot...
thank god holiday is here and after my birthday im gonna sleep long time...
haha...
anyway got a very great birthday gift one week ago...
but to be able to get it fully i need to submit it...
haha...
so excited...
well today i did nothing much in class...
slacking all the way...
and and the plan to go out and celebrate my bdae is still so not there yet...
nothing has been finalize yet...
argh...
anyways...
4 more days to my BIRTHDAY!!!
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12:23:00 AM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
took train to school again today...
i just can't wake up la...
have been sleeping so late everyday...
cause smsing baby...
haha...
i was earliest amongst dalton, lorrian and labin...
but by the time we walk to school and into class...
late alr...
lol.
this inflexible faci was nice today...
mark me present wor...
haha...
good good...
i shall put more effort in class...
haha...
thanks ah faci...
lol.
so happy wor baby coming school to find me cause i got no money...
suppose to meet friend after school...
but since baby coming then all appointments become pending cases...
haha...
baby is my priority can...
lol.
cannot afford to lose him ah...
haha...
hmm...
friend i will get back to you again if i can meet you ya...
im so sorry ah...
haha...
although friends are important to me but people you should know me ah...
BF is much much much more important although i don't show it...
haha...
but if you all ask me out i would definitely make time for you one kaes...
haha...
anyways... plans for my bdae???
Kinder surprise for my bdae present anyone???
7days more.!!
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2:33:00 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
Alrights...
7 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!
turning 18..!
and and baby gonna celebrate my birthday with me..!
haha..
so excited...
cause cause im going drinking...
haha...
im staying out from sunday till tuesday..!
friends... don't forget my birthday. must ask me out...
haha...
was early for school today...
cause i took train again...
1 thing i really don't like is...
every morning the train is so crowded...
lol.
but at least i reach school fast enough...
haha...
today's lesson was kinda easy i guess...
or maybe i did the easier part so i don't know anything of the difficult ones...
well... having labin and johnson in my team... no need worry la...
haha...
and vivian also very efficient one... haha.... prepare everything before going for break...
haha...
like my group...
haha...
and and...
UT today...
first UT after a long break...
hahaha...
so nervous la...
but well i manage to finish like 10mins before it end...
haha...
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8:20:00 PM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
woke up late today...
but still i manage to reach woodlands inter on time to meet Dalton and lorrian...
lessons was although boring but i manage to focus and listen...
hmm... first time i manage to understand a bit in the microeconomics class...
one bad thing was through the end of the lesson i wasn't feeling well...
and so... i didn't present during presentation...
LOL.
wasted sia...
anyway... finish RJ in school before we leave...
after school off to Clarke Quay..!
haha...
went with Dalton, Wailong, Johnson, Lorrian, Elly and Janice...
hehe...
went to eat bak kut teh and after walk around central...
but walk like one level and then we walked out and sit beside the river...
haha...
we started cam-whoring non-stop...
bought ice-cream to eat and yum yum... its so nice...
haha...
slack till about 9pm sitting there talking and crapping...
LOL.
and home sweet home...
took a long bus ride home...
but the day was fun with my classmates around...
haha....
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11:51:00 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
ok i finally solved my problem...
i should have felt happy and a sense of relieved...
but instead i felt sad...
i regret for what i chose to do...
but its all to late...
its so contradicting...
i was so firm on getting rid of it but after all of that i felt that i made the wrong choice...
damn it...
i always regret after making a decision...
anyway i feel like im holding on to something that is not mine...
its not suitable for me and we are always unhappy...
i don't know what i should do...
im afraid that its another decision that i will regret on...
damn it...
got work tomorrow and baby's is meeting me at workplace when i finish work...
hehe...
i think only because its this week...
haiis...
its gonna be a tiring day cause im going to go home late and i got school the next day...
lol.
but for the sake of money...
i don't really mind...
cause i need money...
haha...
always so in need of money...
haiis...
hope my financial life will get better soon...
anyways...
16more days to my BIRTHDAY!!!
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12:45:00 AM
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
im pissed off with that jasmine yap...
omg...
the grades she give me sucks...
doesn't even motivate me to go for her lesson...
lols.
what a bitch is she can...
and you...
how do you expect me to meet you when you haven even reach home in the morning...
not even at 8...
and tonight is the same thing again... how you want me to meet you???
haiis...
dunno whats wrong with you...
anyway to some retarded people...
don't like me dun read my blog...
i never ask you to read it...
lols.
if scared i scold you online den i seriously think you are a joke...
if you never do anything wrong then why would you even be afraid that people are scolding you behind your back...
lols.
dun be lame.
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11:55:00 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
IHATEYOUMUMMY!!!
i really hate you alot...
why can't you just give me what i want...
i just want to go out late for one day...
just one day of every week...
why can't i have the privilege???
because of you... i hate to come home...
i hate to see your face...
i hate to talk to you...
i like nothing in this house...
nothing in this family...
i just can't wait to find for a stable job and move out of the house...
i just want you out of my sight...
i want to have my own freedom...
i want my own life and not you controlling me...
it just sucks...
im like a joke amongst my friend...
this really sucks...
why is my life always so difficult for me???
i didn't want it this way but it always is...
IHATEMYLIFE!!!
and you i thought you say you were tired...
ask me not to meet...
end up you are playing computer games at home...
can't bear to part with your computer games right...
and then if your friends ask to meet you will definitely meet...
since these two are so important to you...
den why would you even need me?
special reasons?
lols!
im so stress and so many family problems and your problem which is also my problem...
its alr enough...
but instead of lightening it you are adding on to it...
really la...
if you see this post today..
tmr might as well dun meet...
you everyday play game till morning...
so which day are you not tired???
NONE!!!!!!!!!!!
you are tired every single day...
so does it make any difference if i meet you today or tmr???
NO!!!!!!!
promise to meet me end up never...
what is this...
next time things you can't do don't promise la...
it just ruin everything can!!!
really la if im so not important to you as compared to your friends and your computer games...
just tell me so...
at least i know the fact...
dun let me live in my own dreamland and after that always make me sad...
really...
i feel what people say is true...
excessive computer games ruin people's life...
i can tell you... continue playing like that and don't regret k... :'(
i forgot you once said promise are meant to be broken...
so it applies in the past and also the present...
since i was the one who ask you to promise to meet...
and you broke one day of your promise...
might as well let me break the rest...
which ever day that you promise to meet...
its meant to be broken...
so you don't have to meet me as planned alr...
you have your own free time to do whatever you want...
how about when you want to meet me den sms me...
so it wouldn't seem like im irritating you to meet...
and so it gives you much more freedom and more time to yourself...
i think that would suit you best and be most comfortable for you...
this feeling sucks...
i've got problem and i can only talk to myself...
i cry and the only person that care for me is me myself...
does he even know i cry...
i suppose not...
not until i post this blog post...
not until he read it...
it have not been easy for me...
you are stress but i feel more stress than you do...
i've got other family problems to face...
i've got my stupid mummy who constantly scolds me for nothing...
who doesn't allow anything that i do...
you will never understand how i feel...
never ever understand...
IM SICK AND TIRED OF MY LIFE...
SOMEBODY KILL ME PLS!!!
oh ya anyways....
today morning Dalton bought kinder joy...
and i got one too!!!
haha...
thanks Dalton..!
but i want kinder surprise...
haha...
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9:41:00 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
worked in the morning today...
opened the shop aloe and worked till 4...
my problem has not yet been solved...
deadline is this friday...
if nobody's gonna help me im screwed...
damn it im so stress now...
anyway have been improving in my daily grades and so less nagging from mummy...
and for that i ask a request from her...
not to get more allowance from her...
cause i know thats a for sure NO.
LOLS!
i merely ask for 1 day off like saturday curfew to be the next day or very late in the night...
without thinking her immediate reply was a NO!
seriously... you give me all kinds of excuse like cause i will be the only girl...
like wth...
did i even say that... NO..!
pls la...
i have girl friends going out with me also...
tried so hard to explain to her and end up she still don't understand...
wtf..!
and my fucking curfew is to be home by 1!!!!
LOLS!!!
im so bloody pissed off can!!!
18 alr and my curfew is at 1..!!
fucking pathetic can...
can have more freedom not??
also not say will affect my grades in school la...
so inflexible can...
say they care for me...
care what fuck sia...
what i need can't give me...
what i request for also can't agree with it...
what lan jiao tai ji is this lor...
knn...
fucking pissed off!!!
seriously im not gonna care what she is going to say im going out every single day...
i will go everywhere and anywhere..
and as for saturday..
i will go out till i am happy den i go home...
whether she likes it or not thats her fucking problem...
i can't be bothered abut what she thinks...
since she doesnt even care about how i feel...
thanks for being so caring to me lor...
I HATE MY FAMILY!!!!
and now she even set curfew for what time i need to sleep...
gosh im not like 8months old...
i cant go out till late at night...
worse still i cant sleep at the preferred time i want...
can i get to choose something in my life???
can you dun make me hate my life pls???
this just sucks la...
so much things have been happening this few weeks...
damn it...
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1:27:00 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
damn it...
lost my ez-link card early in the morning...
was definitely a bad day for me...
wasn't feeling well for the whole day probably because of you...
felt giddy and nauseous...
haiis...
its getting worse as days passed...
did debut today... something that i definitely don't like...
i will never excel in doing a debut...
it just sucks luh...
ok was awaiting for baby to come and meet me after school...
but but...
he woke up only when like i just finish school..
wow... thanks for that 'wonderful' day lor...
back home at night at about 9plus...
wanted to go and eat but stupid person keep rushing me...
first thought that came to my mind was he is rushing off to meet his friends...
well...
fine.
but ended up you said i blamed you for the wrong thing...
since so, why didnt you clarify it when i said im not going to eat?
you know how fucking hungry i am...
i am damn it having gastric pain luh...
thanks for your so called care and concern ah...
yea i don't deny that you did ask me if i wanna eat at bedok inter...
but well it was only when i was about to reach home then my gastric pain started acting up...
can't you just understand...
can't you just give in to me??
yea.. you can't...
asking you to give in to me was a total chore to you right...
den i dun see why i need to give in to you...
damn it...
can't wait to go to school tmr...
meeting labin, dalton and lorrian...
actually nothing new cause we meet almost everyday...
haha..
but still happy to see them...
they make my day happier...
haha...
Loves e55a!
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11:53:00 PM
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
met up with Labin, Dalton, Aaron and Lorrian before going to school today...
as usual Lorrian was late...
haha...
she is the queen la...
our class princess...
hahaha...
class was as usual boring...
dun like the faci...
cause it seems like she doesn't like me either...
but seriously who cares...
she is so inflexible luh...
every single thing also want to report...
haiis...
Dalton just had a slight fever and she wanted him to go to the office...
lols...
Anyway hope Dalton will get well soon from his coughing and slight fever...
took train with Lorrian to town after school...
and and...
after the broken anklet which i didn't get it replace for a long time...
i finally got it today...
haha....
went back to bedok to meet baby after that...
and he accompanied me home...
lols.
ate dinner at my house den he went home cause tmr got school for him...
haha...
although i have to go school too...
but i go school to meet my friends so it doesn't really matter...
haha...
I haven't got my problem solved and really hope somebody could help me...
damn it...
i feel so hopeless now...
IM DEPRESSED..!
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11:52:00 PM
Monday, May 4, 2009
why do you always have to find me at the wrong time???
i used to love you and like you alot...
but if only you come later i would love you more than how i used to think i will love you...
you appear in my life now and ruin my daily routine...
affected my mood...
now i start to dislike you...
cause i find you irritating...
but i really don't know why you just got to cling onto me...
making me suffer and have to make difficult decisions...
i can't bear to leave you but i am left with no choice...
its either you or my future...
i might be selfish but sometimes it seems like being selfish would be a better choice...
i feel sorry towards you but really im left with no choice...
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10:38:00 PM
im stress!!!
i have problems that i can't share with anyone and i don't know how to solve it...
its sucks when i meet with this kind of problem...
i don't know how to manage my stress and im not good in solving my own problem...
im going to breakdown soon..!
who can be there to solve my problem for me or with me???
how i wish somebody can be here for me to solve my problem with me...
i might look like im fine cause i have been trying to avoid my problems...
i have been trying to forget about it so that it wouldn't affect my mood...
but the problem i have would only get worse as days past...
i want to solve the problem soon...
but to solve the problem i need money... alot alot of money...
even if i work i need a long time to get that amount of money that i need...
damn it why is money alw a problem in my life...
why is it always a factor that stops me from doing things...
i hate my life now cause i don't know what i can do...
maybe one day if i die all the problems would be solve...
and i wont need to worry that i don't have money to solve my problem...
Anybody can save me???
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3:16:00 PM
Saturday, May 2, 2009
1/5/09Yesah!
after working for mummy for the whole afternoon...
i got to go out at night...
went to watch movie...
suppose to watch Taken with baby but cause i alr watched it with my classmates...
also the cinema was almost full...
so we went to watch another show instead... 17 Again...
haha...
the movie was average as compared to Taken...
haha...
I wanna watch Taken again...!
Anyway before i went for the movie...
saw Estella working at E!hub Nebo counter...
haha...
wanted to sign up for Nebo member with her but ytd go no money alr...
so probably next week den i sign up la...
haha..
also dunno sign up for what but anything la...
lols!
met barry and lourra as well... the shop has a new crew working looks dam ugly can...
haha...
i bet their sales is bad with that girl around...
lols.
2/5/09
mother's day lunch at church today...
and after that got to rush to work...
lunch ends at 2 and im starting work at 3...
argh... so rush ah...
anyway leaving house soon for the lunch...
and today baby working for mummy as delivery boy wor...
thanks for helping me out cause that was suppose to be my job...
haha...
hope you wont be late... =D
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10:46:00 AM
Friday, May 1, 2009
gosh!
i sick...
like after i submit my declaration to the school that im fine...
i am sick...
flu, fever and cough...
argh...
the freaking flu is makine me feel so uncomfortable...
damn it...
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1:24:00 AM