& a million words said , just to keep you by my side .

Monday, January 19, 2009

17/1/09

took a day off from work cause i wasn't feeling well...
but but end up i still got to meet up with customers...
troublesome...
was a sucky day cause i wasn't able to get my pay as scheduled...
damn it...
im in need of money...
what type of boss is he sia...
like to owe people pay...
earn money but keep all the money people work for him he still so stingy...
den things do wrong or never manage to do it he scold...
never think people also got other things to do also...
people also got family that need to spend time with...
always give me a whole load of things den expect me to finish in one day by myself...
you are enjoying yourself going on a holiday but have you ever thought whta is happening to your shop in Singapore...
i think people sell your shop you also dunno...
anyways im so glad that it is my last month working in Ss...
not going to let you take advantage of me anymore...

today spend a whole day with eddie since morning... cause he was at ecp...
left ecp and went to pw to eat but poor baby stomach not feeling well so never eat...
wanted to eat tom yam but scared gastric pain so i ate chicken rice instead...
after i finish eating baby wasn't feeling quite good so we went back to his house instead...
but sian on the way back this customer call and i got to go back to ecp at 4...
so we went back to rest for a while till 3 den to ecp...
the whole day we were just travelling everywhere and the weather is so hot lar...
like gonna get heatstroke anytime...
after ecp we took a bus to bugis...
suppose to meet mummy at city hall...
but but when i reach bugis and give her a call she tell me che can't meet me...
damn...
cannot buy things...
me and baby went to walk around bugis...
but but... it was so crowded with people lor...
everywhere also crowded...
want to buy things also sian lor...
went home at about 8 cause really got no place for me to go alr cause it was so crowded and i got no money...
meet up with mummy for dinner and we eat until so bloated cause i ordered too much...
sorry but my estimation sucks...
reached home and i was feeling worse den how i felt in the morning...
luckily i don't have to work tmr...
anyway i do rmb our anniversary date although i haven said it to you for quite some time...

HAPPY 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!!

18/1/09

work is piling up and im getting very very stress...
not suppose to work today cause i was suppose to be resting at home...
but watie last minute couldn't work so i got to go to kallang to open shop...
headache and stomach not feeling well...
that kind of feeling is not very good cause it makes me feel very weak...
damn with me being sick...
i seriously realise i dun have a very understanding boss...
he piles up work on top of all those work that i have...
and and instead of helping and giving crew their pay...
he expects me to give all the crew cash as their pay...
where am i gonna get enough money to give...
now all the crew coming after me for their pay...
damn it...
was damn freaking pissed off with BH of what he have done and what he said to me can...
nvm... it is all gonna end soon...

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10:53:00 AM

Friday, January 16, 2009

whats the problem with you...
you are always so can't be bothered....
i really don't know what i can do about you...
i tried to tolerate... but i just can't...
i know you have been tolerating my temper and attitude too but well im just sorry...
but have you ever felt sorry for me?
im sick and yet you dunno how to accompany me... must it wait till i ask you den you will accompany me?
actually i did ask but you rejected me...
know why i dun like to take the initiative to ask you cause i dun like the feeling when you reject me...
you dunno how i feel cause you seldom ask me to go out with you or rather you never asked before...

YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SAD AND CRY!

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11:07:00 PM

damn... another of school and work...
woke up late again as usual and i was very late for school...
and and... im sick... wow...
rush off after second meeting to go to kallang to open shop and ya im feeling worse...
work is piling up and nobody can help me or want to help me...
i got to coach at tampines today and go to DTE to collect thing and back to kallang to do admin again...
i suppose im going to camp at kallang again today... this time im alone...
tried to ask bf if he can come to tampines to find me but he say he doesn't wanna go to TPE...
and since he said that i dun bother asking him anything more...
concentrate playing your game and enjoy your time at home...

the feeling just sucks when im sick...
always makes me cry cause i feel very suffocated and and i would always vomit...
another week of not going to eat anything... damn it...

you know its not like i want to ask you to come to tampines to accompany me but its just that im too sick and im not feeling good thats why i asked you... and cause i got so many other place to go to so i asked you... well since you love your game so much and hate tampines so much and so much of caring for me i shall not disturb you to ask you out... its not i dun wan to sms you but what can i sms you??? forget it...

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Thursday, January 15, 2009

14/1/09

normally end work at 8 i will elave the shop only at 8.30 plus plus... but but ytd i left on the dot 8... was freaking crying in the shop when so many customers walk pass... all thanks to somebody... left the shop without even doing cash up... 2 days never do cash up alr..
if B know i think im in big trouble... but who cares he is not even in the country... i have too much problem that i can't be bothered with the shop anymore...

i declare i sucks in relationship... i am seriously not a good gf... i suppose im the worse gf ever... or maybe he is right i shouldn't be in a relationship now... eddie eddie... i seriously dunno how to be nice... maybe im really very bad as a gf...

15/1/09

damn got to work today again... wanted to go ikea after coaching but realise i can't... crew can't work den i got to cover their shifts... now i know how all my previous manager felt when crew dun turn up for work and they got to cover their shifts... sorry to my managers that sometimes got to cover my shifts for me... wonder what time i got to work till today... damn it...

manage to wake up early today for UT and i wasn't late but because i can't find my UTQ i started late... damn... thought i dun have time to finish it but i finish everything earlier then the UT ended... haha... and and Angie was sitting beside me and she can't stop sneezing... falling sick soon... im so bored in class... phone kept ringing cause there was so many phone calls regarding complains... damn it... everyday kena scolded by people... argh...

I WANT TO GO TO PARKWAY TO BUY THINGS!!! WHY ALWAYS GOT NO TIME TO GO SIA...DAMN IT... I WANT TO GO TO VIVO AS WELL. ARGH!!!

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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

bored. got to work today again. i worked everyday except for monday. no life.

ytd was the worse day ever. for so long i have not been complained by customers until ytd...
and and... it wasn't totally my fault and i got scolded by so many ppl... worse thing is... B is not in the country, he didn't know the situation den he just reprimanded me... nonsense... everything also my fault... pls lor i only know about the Chatsworth class like one day before... and i have never done i before so how you expect me to know what to do... damn it.

wake up only at 8 today... reach school real late... worse thing is i need to stay throughout the whole day can't leave early... damn it... my sales at kallang will be dead... damn im so stressed because of work and i still have got school... today after school got to rush to work... hmm... tired tired... hope daddy will fetch me to work...

planning with mummy about 2 days before chinese new yr as i will be alone at home cause she wont be in... hmm she is so afraid i will ask eddie to come... stupid say so many times le he is busy wont come she still cannot understand... dumb dumb...

dunno tell her how many times le... if eddie going out with friends no matter what also wont come she just cannot understand... haiis... so difficult to explain things to her...

sian time to go to wwork alr... want daddy to fetch!!!

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

im getting use to not meeting you everyday.
sometimes i just wonder why can't you be auto a bit.
thing don't need to wait till ppl say den you can do.
why you dunno how to take the initiative to do something or go some place?
must you always wait for me to tell you?
you dun like me to treat you like how i treat jon but you want me to treat you like how i treat him...
you always wait for me to tell you ask you to go somewhere den you go...
isn't it the same as me calling him around to meet me and do things for me...
if you were to be auto abit more den you wouldn't feel that im treating you like how i treat jon alr...
dun be like a block of wood always need me to tell you or ask you den you will do...
after some time i will get tired of asking...
i know i can never be able to change you but i will just try until one day i am sick and tired of trying...

you say that i have too high expectations

i try to lower my expectations a few times

but still you are still the same

i can't change how you are like

i just need to change myself

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