Saturday, May 31, 2008
today afternoon rain so heavily that we have to close down all of the shutter...
so xiao xuan and me was standing behind the counter and we started taking pictures...
only this two pictures look nice..
and we even put one of the picture as joseph's hp wallpaper... haha...
so sad xiao xuan leaving soon le..
and today is her last day working with me...
i will miss you de...
must come back and visit us lei..
dun leave le den forget about us...
so sad you cannot come for my birthday party tmr...
i want to take some more pictures with you...
really hope that you can come...
today i work until 6 den stay at shop until 8 cause i dun dare to walk through the underpass den want somebody to accompany me...
but den nobody finish work so i have to wait until Eddie to finish work and pei me go to the opposite and take bus...
thought Eddie was going back thats why i ask him to follow me to the bus stop but reach the bus stop den i realise he actually just accompany me there then he going to walk back again...
so cute sia...
thanks eddie...
next time dun do that ler...
waste of time and energy...
went to NTUC wih mummy to buy things for my BBQ tmr...
cant wait for tmr night...
i think im going to be very drunk...
DAMN it...
eddie dun allow me to drink...
i know you care about me...
but its my birthday so must enjoy...
dun worry i have limits de k...
BIRTHDAY coming soon....
everybody must buy me presents!!!
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Friday, May 30, 2008
today i woke up at 7 sms shawn he alr on the way to school...
so i took my time to bath den i leave the house..
reach school at around 9.18pm...
i thought i will be very late but so sad i wasnt....
that stupid lao char bor is so irritating la...
second meeting take my phone use as demonstration..
my phone is so precious to me she touch alr suay sia...
must change phone again...
all because of the lao char bor....
she waste my time for going to school also waste my money...
she is just wasting everybody's time....
anyway went to eat at crystal jade kitchen during the second break....
sms shawn if he wants anything i buy for him but he dun wan...
in fact he tell me that tonight he leaving for bangkok...
my reaction ws like wtf...
why do you have to tell me last minute???
do you even know that im sad when you say that you are leaving...
why cant you inform me earlier???
i ask you what time exactly you leaving you tell me night...
i want the exact time....
you call me when i was at causeway point to help you buy plaster..
i help you buy but did you know that i buy that for you because i will have a reason to meet you...
why from the time you leave for hong kong until now you never once meet me before you leave the country...
sometimes i feel like telling you how much i miss you but somehow i find it useless to tell you cause you will never treat it seriously...
wanted to takee cab with you after school to go home but since you never say i anything i aslo never ask you le....
went to tampines alone and all the while i was thinking of you...
well you will never know how i feel....
today's coaching was mostly done by barry and i was assisting him but it was fun...
after coaching look at my phone and i saw 1 msg from you at 8:13:47pm...
the only msg you send was 'bye bye tc'...
i didnt know whether i should cry or just act like nothing happen...
but i ask you when you are coming back there was no reply from you...
forget it....
it was no use asking you..
i will just have to emo until the day when you feel like smsing me bah....
luckily my holiday is alr occupied with things or else i will just keep thinking about you....
hope you come back soon so that i still can sms you...
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Thursday, May 29, 2008
today morning woke up late suppose to take bus to school but cannot...
had to sms shawn and ask him to fetch me to school...
anyway dunno why today he like in a bad mood today...
sian la...
look so fierce sia...
like as if i offended him like that....
stress ar...
den dunno why ask him to fasten his seat belt he dun wan to listen to me...
whatever la..
traffic police catch you is you pay money not me...
on the expressway he was speeding den still dun wan fasten his seat belt...
dunno whats wrong with him...
ask him to fasten his seat belt he ignore me ask me to look out for traffic police...
for what sia...
why can't you just fasten your seat belt...
you know the whole time going to school im just so worried that you will get caught by traffic police...
reach school on time but when go up for ut test is late le....
sian...
two days in a row late for school...
anyway holiday coming soon den cannot get to see shawn le...
some more he going to Japan...
sian...
will miss him alot...
anyway virthday coming soon which means chalet coming soon...
haha..
sad you won't go and also cannot go...
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
today stupid shawn make me go for class late...
but nvm la its not like as if i have never been late for class before...
den on the way to school putri called and ask me if i am going to school....
actually the class was waiting for me to come and they are going to push me out of the class....
but luckily today i was very attentive whenever jumaeen or shahid walk near me i would immediately stand up...
although very stupid but still i have to protect myself...
haha...
today's topic was a headache cause my whole grp dunno how to do it...
den during second break without anything completed, me, natasha and hanif went to causeway to eat...
dun care about the ppt...
we went back at about 2 and only then we started doing our ppt...
only 30min to do ppt...
siao ar..
luckily we manage to finish within 30min and we are the first grp to present...
like dunno anything just anyhow present...
today's ppt confirm fail de...
sian la...
if i know ppt like that i would rather chabbot than waste my time in class...
anyways today arrange to meet jonathan to go for a movie together...
took a train to dhoby gaut to meet him and i fell asleep on the train...
luckily i never miss the stop...
when we are at ps we went to ajisen to eat den after that go watch movie...
after the movie, we went to walk around ps and then realise that got nothing much so he send me home by cab...
dunno why but he started emoing on the cab...
decided not to talk to him cause i know it is because of me...
so scared he is going to ask me questions that i dunno how to answer again...
dun understand why he like to stress me up so much...
why force me to listen to you, to do things that i dun like...
although it makes you happpy but it makes me irritated...
can you spare a thought for me too???
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ytd my class ppl went crazy...
they started pushing ppl out of the class and everywhere in that level....
the worse is that they push ppl into other ppl class...
joke sia...
and den later whoever sit on the chair all will eventually get pulled out of the class...
crazy...
den after school shawn suppose to fetch mt to ps and drop me off but he didnt...
he drop me off at bugis...
but we wasted so much time at bugis den i cannot go east coast...
den i dunno what he do but he kick his leg against a door and got a deep cut that couldn't stop bleeding...
haha...
i just cannot stop laughing when i look at his leg...
den went to berlington with him to see doctor and the doctor thought that i was his gf...
nonsense...
hahaha....
den he stare at me....
for what sia i also never tell the doctor that i am your gf....
crazy....
anyway wasted so much time 7 still at bugis..
i think eddie also angry with me le la...
make him wait for me for so long....
im sorry eddie...
haha...
walao the doctor charge so expensive la...
crazy siall....
den shawn dunno why decided that he dun wan to go for night class anymore so he fetch me to bedok inter since he was going home...
den ask him fetch me to east coast but he dun wan...
weirdo....
so no choice i got to take cab from bedok to east coast....
if not because eddie waiting for me i think i dun wan to go to east coast le la....
by the time i reach there was alr like going to close shop le...
go there for nothing...
anyway ytd was probably the longest time i have spent with shawn...
haha...
why must he be nice to me???
whenever he is nice to me den i will very sad when he gives me a cold shoulder....
he can really make me feel miserable...
if you dun want to be nice to me for the rest of the day den pls dun be nice to me on any of the days....
it just makes me feel sad...
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Saturday, May 24, 2008
today didnt even know that i was suppose to start work at 8...
woke up at 9 den nigel called and ask me go down for work cause i dun start at 10...
wth.. change roster also must tell me rite...
never inform how i know...
idris you are an idiot sia... never inform what kind of manager are you???
morning go to work barry called and talk to me and i got scolded...
alr in a very bad mood cause of shawn going to japan soon and also change of my roster and not enough sleep...
but barry still had to scold me so i couldnt take the stress and i cried....
cried at the bloody shop that im working at...
but nigel was nice to comfort me....
just felt very stress cause i alr tried my best to sell it but no it didnt work for me....
the whole day i tried to sell classes or even class but nobody want to buy...
by afternoon barry had to call to check on me again and thats it i got scolded again....
he said that i wasnt working hard enough anf he scolded me...
again i cried cause i really couldnt take it anymore....
this time i felt so bad that i couldnt stop crying....
nigel and justin came to comfort me...
but idris suppose to comfort me but in fact he was just rubbing into what barry had said...
idris dun be a fcuker... i know you are happy that i got scolded but you dun need to say all those things to me to make me feel worse...
if you dun like me then fcuk off....
i dun need you to like me....
if you want to be my friend just to see me cry and get scolded by barry den you are not welcome...
and things that i never done pls dun accuse me for doing it...
i haven been talking to barry for a long time other than msges that he requires me to reply him...
and i didnt complain to barry about you so stop all your assumptions that it is me who tell him....
its not like as if i have nothing better to do to go and complain abt you...
i get nothing from it so why must i do it...
dun be crazy...
i have other better things to do...
im not so free to bitch about you and it is also not worth it...
waste of my time, my saliva and my energy....
crazy asshole...
anyhow accuse me and never even apologize sia...
say alr thaat i never complain and yet you still dun believe me...
since you dun believe me den why bother asking if i complain abt you...
bloody retarded idiot....
even though i treat you as my friend but i just got to scold you cause you are fcuking pissing me off....
if you never do anything wrong den why scared of ppl complaining about you????
crazy....
finally i finish work walk out to go to the bus stop to take bus den i realise that i never bring my ez-link card...
today really an unlucky day for me...
no money, got scolded, den never bring ez-link card...
luckily i still have $3 plus still enough for me to take bus to PS den take a bus home....
promise to meet Nicholas at PS so cannot dun go....
cause he buying me my bdae present...
haha...
take bus 36 so crowded sia...
so many ppl den i have to squeeze inside...
sian la...
went to PS to buy the shorts that i want alr then i receive call from fiona that she fell down and hurt quite badly...
den while i was on the way home skatesports ppl call me to ask me for fiona's number sia...
but never give cause i scared never ask her later she angry with me...
den by night time idris sms me to ask me for fiona's hp number...
i never give cause i will never give my gf number to him de...
stop asking me for her number cause i will never give it to you...
all you need to know is that she is ok....
reach home le talk to shawn online but he nevver talk to me...
sad sia...
haiis...
want to go watch movie tmr but i got no money...
want to go skate but got nobody to go and skate with...
sian...
do anything also cannot...
im so sad.....
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Friday, May 23, 2008
today morning wake up late again...
7.30 still at bedok mrt station...
den when i reach tanah merah mrt shawn sms me...
i thought i late but actually he told to meet at 7.45 what...
make me rush for nothing.....
den me and his friend, ethan took cab to his house as instructed by him....
like everything also must listen to him....
sians...
today dunno whether if i want to skip school cause its computing....
some more ytd a lot of them back out and nobody want to pon so im still deciding...
on the way to school called shahid and he said that he going to school with natasha first...
so i told them that i will meet them in school den we decide...
anyway reach school only den i sian alr...
so i skip school with natasha and shahid...
went to tampines and watch movie but we were so early that the cinema is not open....
so we went to eat at long john silver with natasha...
den went to arcade to play for a while and movie time...
the stupid movie was so scary that i practically didnt watch anything...
after the movies went to east coast park to meet jonathan and we went skating...
but it was so hot that i couldnt take it so i stayed in the shop and waste time....
den fiona came to the shop to find for me so i went skating to bedok jetty with her...
saw nat at inline culture but didnt stop to talk to him....
den we skate back again from bedok jetty to shop...
tired ar...
den jonathan and me head off to tampines cause i have got attachment there...
after coaching went to pasir ris to take my hp earpiece from shahid den we ate at macs...
sian la..
im like so tired after a whole day of outing...
den come home go online best thing is shawn tell me he going japan in 2 weeks time and going for 2 weeks...
omg...
he just came back from hong kong la...
its like i just see him not long ago den now he leaving again...
sad but cannot tell him, miss him cannot say...
i also dunno what to do le..
i feel so hopeless now....
why you come back but leave again so soon...
cant you stay for a while longer?
SHAWN!!!!!!
Argh.....
im sad yet frustrated....
cause he dunno how i feel....
2 weeks!!!!!!!
thats crazy!!!!!
dun think my holiday will be an enjoyable one....
haiis....
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Thursday, May 22, 2008
today morning go to tanah merah to meet shawn den saw two of his friends there....
i think soon he will fill his car up with ppl den dun need to fetch me le....
anyway i also not important to him ma....
sian...
in the car i just keep playing audition on my psp cause im just so bored...
reach school so bloody early also dunno what i can do....
den he went to 7-eleven with his friends so i just follow lo...
since i got nothing to do....
den i dunno why he like to make fun of me in front of his friends..
sometimes he just make me feel so sad....
i just dun understand why he must make fun of me in front of his friends...
hmph...
todays science topic is so difficult cause very difficult to explain...
feel like zhaoing but cannot cause i cant ditch my grp here...
but good thing is today i got help from shawn and angela...
today really got no mood to do the ppt but still have to do...
my whole grp slack until 1hr before the lesson starts den do the ppt...
we are all slackers...
in the class busy blogging and playing audition...
jonathan sms me ask me to meet him today but since i got nothing to do so ok lo...
said to meet at town but in the end i tell him to meet me at tampines cause easier for me..
and i cant go home late today...
if not no allowance...
sian so restricted now although i have a lot of freedom...
after school waited for shawn at the carpark...
den when we were in the car he started making fun of me...
so irritating la...
keep irritating me until we reach tanah merah...
how can somebody be so irritating....
omg i almost wanted to cry alr la...
why he just like to irritate me so much....
you make me feel very sad you know....
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
from ytd 8 pm until now so many things happen...
im so sick and tired of quarreling with people...
why can't you all just give me a break and dun irritate me for once....
im in a bad mood and idris still came to provoke me...
he could actually still that it is a joke...
when i scolded him den he shut his mouth up...
why can't he just keep quiet and not even joke with me..
den joseph dunno why like dun wan to talk to me den tell zhi qiang is because i dun wan to talk to him...
its not lor..
like want to talk to you but you so dao how to talk sia...
like after skating we slack outside the shop den you started talking to me...
wth...
suddenly so nice to me ask whether i want to eat...
but im on diet so i didnt eat...
close shop alr den they went to the beach and slack but me and joseph didnt talk much....
when we are at the beach my stupid mummy is so irritaing to keep calling me..
so i might as well just off my phone...
keep calling tell her im going home alr but she keep calling...
so irritating la....
she just cannot understand what im talking about...
so i was angry until i off my phone..
although i never go home early but i have alr finish my homework at east coast right...
why make such a fuss just because im home late....
its not like the first time im home late right...
im alr so frustrated because of j.....
and you are still quarreling with me...
morning i wake up late den bath and all alr 7.15...
suppose to wait for shawn at tanah merah at 7.30 but i dun think i can make it on time....
he keep rushing me but when i reach he aso haven reach....
nonsense make me walk so fast....
saw all the msg that somebody send to me and make myself sad....
no mood to go to school...
sian ar..
after school still got to go to east coast...
actually not a must but i just dun wan to go home...
im fucking sick and tired of all the nonsense that i have now....
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
today wake up late..
but still i reach school very early...
shawn sms me while i was on the way to school den when i reach he also in school le...
first time he come to school early...
its only morning and i feel very tired alr...
cause ytd slack at east coast with joseph till very late den by the time i bath and dry my hair den gone case alr....
almost 2 den i sleep la...
but ytd was the best time i slept cause very tired den lie on the bed immediately i sleep alr...
never like wake up in the middle of the night like usual...
how i wish everyday can sleep like that...
somebody sms me joseph msn nick....
so i was like why mst you tell me...
cause really got nothing to do with me lei....
haha...
anyway today i never contribute anything to my grp..
im sorry guys... im really too tired to think...
sorry to be a burden today...
will be better the next week...
we are the first to present for presentation today so i look fucking dead cause im very shag alr...
ppt i think im going to fail lo....
although today never do anything but really very shag alr....
probably is accumulated from the past few days of hardwork until today....
really i think i will just sleep at anywhere i can sleep at....
cant wait for school to end den i can go to east coast...
i miss him so much....
anyway today dun intend to go home alr....
im just so sad that i got no mood to go home and spend time alone...
i just want to spend time with him...
i just care so much about him but get nothing in return....
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today is a public holiday and i went to work at 8....
sian cause confirm today a lot of ppl....
but got customer nobody working also no use ma...
so only me and xiao xuan in the morning today...
when i reach the shop xiao xuan sms me to tell me that she is going to be late...
my god i reach the shop le lei...
with my skates i really cant go anywhere so i might as well wait or her outside...
den wait and wait and wait bicycle shop uncle open le we still not open.....
i abit sian diao but xiao xuan came in time to open the shop....
den we strated bringing the things out of the shop like the bloody heavy kids rack...
girl power....
dun need guys we can also get the things done...
den while we are waiting for customer to come...
i saw zhiqiang walking towards the shop....
haha...
came to keep xiao xuan company...
den the three of us dunno why suddenly just started talking about joseph and again they had to link it back to me...
wth me and joseph are not together... dun think too much...
i dunno why but suddenly i just became very high and i just kept laughing and laughing...
couldnt stop laughing like in front of the customer la...
so ps....
den joseph suppose to come in at 10 but he was late....
sian lo...
only me and xiao xuan serve customer like going crazy le la...
den the whole afternoon was so busy...
that i dun even have time to rest...
sian....
after work barry actually order pizza for us...
but idris wasnt in a good mood.....
me and joseph slack at east coast and i just keep stepping on his shoe...
haha....
so fun la...
i just enjoy stepping on other people's shoe....
and make their shoe look very dirty...
haha...
joseph's shoe lace was like black in colour....
haha...
im so sorry about that...
haha....
after that took a cab home and mummy was waiting for me downstairs...
sian la..
got scolded by her...
but nvm i cant be bothered...
tmr got to go to east coast to train my skating skills.....
but very scared to see idris...
sian la...
dun care la tmr just have to go to east coast cause of somebody....
anyway shawn is back from hong kong!!!!!!
hahaha....
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
today morning i woke up late...
suppose to be at the shop by 8 to accompany joseph but i left the house only at 8.30....
reach east coast at around 9 den went for a walk....
felt very tired cause today have to work from 10-6....
sian la...
den after work going to esprit to buy my cargo pants thats the only thing that will make me work today.....
morning wasnt very busy until late afternoon and the crowd started coming in....
saw angela at shop den idris said that i could give her free skates...
den when she return i realise that its her birthday today...
anyway today work with joseph throughout my shift...
haha...
never go for break today la....
sian after work like so hungry le...
suppose to go and eat with joseph after work but jonathan came to meet me so i cant go...
den jonathan and me went to pw together and joseph was suppose to meet me there...
but he didnt come...
sian la...
i had to spend time with jonathan alone...
felt so weird when walking with him...
like so uncomfortable...
we went to eat dinner after going to buy my pants...
he treat me eat...
haha...
after dinner he insist that he have to send me home cause tmr i got to work superman shift...
so bopian we went to take a cab to my house...
but then mum said to meet her at the inter so i didnt go home....
tmr is a public holiday and i am suppose to work only 1 shift but cause i see idris dun have anymore crew...
so i was so nice to volunteer to wwork superman...
that means tmr i have to work from 8 in the morning to 9 at night....
tired sia....
some more it is a public holiday...
but for the sake of the shop and the other crews i shall stay cause at least even if im tired i still can be the cashier and help them out...
but tmr morning i definitely will work outside de...
cause public holiday i ahve a rental target of 125 ar...
tmr also must try to sell camps...
from saturday until now haven even sell 1....
my sales sucks for this month ar....
dunno how to answer to barry sia....
looking forward to tmr for being very busy like crazy.....
its going to be fun...
anyway shawn left me for 81 hours alr....
i know you are coming back on tuesday but it just seems like time passes so slow that tuesday never comes.....
i miss you...
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Saturday, May 17, 2008
today go to east coast help nigel open shop but he never come for work.....
den only me and khadijah working like siao...
anyway today got to go for fitting for the bank event...
when i come back from the fitting xiao xuan was working and she keep making fun of me just because of joseph.....
keep saying that joseph is my boyfriend but he is not la....
we are just very good friends....
don't anyhow say la... ppl paiseh sial...
haha...
anyway today wanted to go and buy cargo pants but never go cause im too lazy to go myself...
after work went to eat at macs with xiao xuan and also help idris buy food....
so we started talking about the typical bf that i want...
den xiao xuan keep saying that joseph suit me...
haha... say that i should tell joseph...
i was like its nonsense la....
i will never ask a guy this type of things...
haha....
den i stay at east coast till the shop close and sha came...
treat him eat BK den he said to fetch me home....
so i didnt stay at east coast to wait for joseph to come and i went home...
some more tmr i have to work morning sure very tired de....
but tmr working with joseph and justin so im quite safe...
my backbone still hurts alot and i think i got to go and see a doctor...
sian must waste money seeing doctor again...
joseph call me only after i reach home so i cant meet him today...
if you have called me earlier probably i would stay at east coast a while longer....
im sorry....
suppose to have the international bank event on tuesday but barry sms to tell us that it is on the thursday so now i also blur dunno the event is on tuesday or thursday...
never say properly la...
den on that day also must put on make-up sian la...
on skates still must put on make-up....
anyway shawn left me for 56 hours alr...
i miss him so much....
wonder if he will sms me tonight...
want to stay up and wait but also very tired until got no energy....
tmr is sunday le....
2 more days and he is coming back....
cannot take it ar....
tmr going to pw to buy cargo pants!
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well went for crew night skated from tampines to pasir ris... tired sia... on the way stupid idris had to hide in the bush and scare me, justin and laura...
feel like slapping his face for doing that to me....
there was so many bloody slopes that i couldnt control myself and justin had to pull me from the back...
the worse was when i was about to reach pasir ris i actually fell on my back and it still hurts....
i got cuts on my wrist, my thigh and my ass... didnt know how my ass could get a cut but ya it just did....
im so bloody disappointed in myself for falling down this shows that im still not good in skating....
went all the way to e-hub to collect our pay den skate back to pasir ris park again to eat...
why cant we eat and get paid at the same place...
haiis... im so shag today....
at pasir ris park was like wanting to die alr... but still i couldnt leave...
until when my parents keep buugging me and i really have to leave...
so i called for a cab and barry and laura came along too...
so we took cab together and drop them off at tampines...
barry was nice to pay for my cab fare although i have to top-up a few dollars but still it was nice of him to do that for me...
shawn sms me just a word 'night'....
the previous day was 'good night'....
so i presume that tmr i wont get any msg from him....
the reply i gave to him today was 'your msg is getting shorter and shorter. anyway i just fell very badky just now'...
well he didnt reply to my msg...
nvm la...
im too tired to be bothered about all these things....
although im sad by his reply but well i just cant keep everything under my control....
well tmr have to work 8-6... tiring siall....
i dun get a day rest...
so also no time for me to go shopping...
sian la...
also nobody to go shopping with...
how i wish shawn will be back now... you left me for 36 hours alr....
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Friday, May 16, 2008
im getting my pay today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.... today after school have to rush down to tampines to be coach assistant... sian la...
everyday so tired...
cannot focus in school ar....
the two things im thinking about now is shawn and what am i going to do a tampines later....
this week i totally shag ar...
rush to everywhere sia....
feel so empty without shawn...
sian la...
you ask me not to think so much but is it possible not....
obviously not la...
you are not me you don't know how i feel...
you can don't think so much but not me....
you know ytd the only thing you tell me is don't think so much...
i tried but i can't... is not i never try k...
you think i like to be bothered by all these things...
after you left, i see you online also dun dare to talk to you...
cause you ask me dun think so much about you so i was so dam bloody sad...
although you only left for one day but to me it feels like you left for 1 week alr....
feel like telling you how im feeling now but im just so scared of your response....
you just make me feel so miserable...
but you never read my blog so you will never know.....
shane respond to the msg that you send to me....
i admit that he is nice but i really feel very suffocated..
he controls too much of my life...
i need my freedom and my time...
i want to focus in my work and school...
he never thought of how i feel and never tried to understand me...
i probably need to have some time with myself den i will give him an answer...
although it feels like im the bad person but other ppl will never know what he have done to me...
Labels: shawn i miss you....
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
you told me that your flight is at 12 plus and so i stop msging you to make myself feel better....
but you sms me at 12:56:55 saying that you are at pw....
i thought you were joking with me....
den you tell me that your flight is actually at 3...
you know i was so sad cause why cant you just leave earlier so that i wont keep waiting for your msg....
you just make me so miserable cause of the msges you send to me before you leave and you just stop at a msg which did not give me any answer that i want...
your last msg was at 2:48:02 and i my mind went blank cause of you and my presentation was not done.....
during the presentation i was thinking about you and i couldnt really concentrate in doing my presentation and im gonna fail.....
you kept me hanging there and i might get an answer from you only on next wednesday.....
you always make me feel so miserable....
faster come back i really miss you alot... lol....
i want to irritate you de....
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today never go to school with him...
luckily not late for ut test....
sms him when im in school then he say he in school le....
sian la...
to think after ut he going off le... cannot see him....
sian la....
today very tired also very sad... no mood to do work....
i want to sleep... sleep until next tuesday den wake up can??
dun like to come to school anymore... im jus so screwed up now....
i miss him ar....
thought it wouldn't affect me but no i am wrong....
feel so fucked up now...
if i could skip lessons i think i will be home right now...
or probably i will be going out slacking at east coast....
i need to keep myself occupy to ignore him....
but it seems like i just can't do it....
ytd meeting drag until 11 if im not wrong...
so tired cause barry arrange me to go for classes under coach assistant...
i also have to assist for the camp too...
sian la....
Labels: i want to see you now.....
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
tomorrow is the only day i can see him before he leaves the country but i cant....
cause he send his car for servicing den he cant fetch me so tmr i cant see him.......
dun wan to go to school ar.... he also not around go also waste my time....
argh my whole mind is just about him.... during training i keep looking at my phone until i think barry is angry with me.... but cant be bothered la...
shane know that i leave jonathan is because of him and thinks that what im doing is wrong...
he actually sms me when im at home to ask me to consider before making any decisions.....
shane told me that i know who is the right guy for me.... i know but im very suffocated alr...
i feel bad for treating jonathan bad but he ever treated me badly before so we are quit....
tmr after ut test and he is leaving i dun think i even get to see him.....
sians... i think tmr after school i will just go to east coast park and slack cause really got no mood...
wah i really feel very sad until i feel like crying but i really find no reason for me to cry for him....
or mayb cry because he is leaving the country for 6 days... thats quite stupid...
but i just feel so sad....
not even joseph can make me happy....
driving me nuts....
anyway have decided to delete his number from my contacts or im just so afraid that i will flood his inbox when he is away....
probably after he come back he still want to talk to me he can just call me so that i will have his number....
why one week just have to pass so fast that tmr is alr thursday and he is leaving alr.....
just hope that the next few days that he is not around will pass so fast like how it has been these few days....
or i think i will be very miserable....
i will really miss you a lot after you leave... sobs...
Labels: i miss you....
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today morning wake up so early in the morning just to take bus to school... tired siall....
almost late alr but luckily i took the earlier bus if not confirm late...
today shawn never come to school cause he is sick thats why nobody fetch me to school...
wonder if he is feeling better now.... so worried for him....
1 more day and he is leaving for hongkong alr....
i seriously think that i will miss him alot by the fact that i see him almost everyday....
and just today never see him im sad alr...
what more from thursday to next tuesday... my god... i think i will go crazy....
its a good thing that shawn dun read my blog den everyday i can write how i feel about him....
today have the adventure learning but im not going... got to rush to east coast to meet joseph first after that got meeting....
today joseph keep me company the whole day by smsing me and later eat dinner with me....
argh my whole mind is just about shawn now!!!!!!
so frustrated... got no mood to do ppt or to even do anything else....
feel like going home, hug my bolster and sleep den i wont think about him....
i cant rely on him cause he is still not my bf.... or maybe we will never be together... lol... argh....
but somehow i just cant control myself anymore.... haiis....
i really wish that i could see him every single day....
anyway today after school got to rush down to east coast cause i have coach refreshment.....
wonder how is shawn now......
Labels: i miss you every moment....
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tmr shawn not going to school... sians...
the problem is not because nobody fetch me but tmr i cannot get to see him....
some more he leaving country on thursday le.... thats the worse thing that can ever happen to me...
poor shawn is sick... hope you get well soon... if not i will be very worried for you....
anyway today went to east coast suppose to go for class but in the end i went skating with joseph and his friend... haha...
den joseph was like saying that im his part-time girlfriend... haha... he is so cute la...
den we went back to shop cause idris closing shop alr but in the end still close late cause of some problems... wth....
we went to eat at macs slack and talk crap....
until joseph and his friend say that want to go to the beach then i ask them to send me off first...
so we waited for taxi at the taxi stand... actually never wait cause we walk out then got taxi alr....
haha... so i went home planning my day for tmr den realise actually also very tiring....
but no matter what still have to go school... no choice.... sians....
dun feel like going to school tmr..... its enterprise!!!!!!
Labels: im sick too... i think i really will miss you alot after you leave...
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
today tired until i fell asleep in class...
and maybe because im too tired i keep sending the wrong msg to the wrong person...
sian la....
so lazy to go for training but promise joseph to go down to east coast alr den cannot disappoint him...
cause joseph is just like a kid lor... cannot lie to him later he will get angry....
anyway sms that shawn never reply de lor.... wth....
sian la cant wait to finish school.... im just to tired until i cant be bothered about any other things... don't feel like doing presentation alr....
im just too tired..
thank god shawn is fetching me to ps to take bus or i think i will just miss my stop if i were to take mrt....
today faci is so irritating cause she keep asking questions in class den one grp take very long to present....
if later cannot finish on time im going to leave first... can't be bothered alr...
just dun feel like going for class so badly that i feel like scolding anybody i could scold now...
tired and pissed off.....
Labels: im so scared i will miss you alot after you leave....
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Monday, May 12, 2008
today dear shawn fetch me to school den i dun need to take bus.... but he tell me he going to go to hong kong on thursday alr so i was quite sad lar....
im sad not because got nobody to fetch me but because i will miss him.....
he will only come back on next tuesday thats like so long away.....
but this week im busy so its ok cause im occupied with a lot of things and i wont think too much about him....
today he idiot go for break without me... nvm den like that i can lose weight....
den he become fatter.... haha....
that shawn call me a piggy dunno who is fatter la.... cannot get his facts right...
anyway today after school rush home to take my skates den rush down to east coast just to meet fiona... den i skate with her friend and her to big splash.... tiring siall....
went back to shop den joseph tell me not to leave must wait until he finish work...
but i just left without him... haha.... sorry joseph...
joseph i will go and visit you again tmr. i promise.
we went to eat at subway which took us about 1hr to eat.... sit there and slack....
den fiona walk out with me say want to take bus but in the end take taxi....
waste money la...
anyways tmr got to go to east coast for classes.... sian ar...
den joseph will be laughing at me...
den when im at interchange alr joseph sms me a very random msg to thank me for coming....
he is so cute la... haha...
will miss him if he leaves skatesports....
anyway reach home only very tired feel like skipping school tmr but i cant....
tmr have a stupid ut test.....
and shawn is leaving the country so bloody soon.... argh.....
just feel so angry today..... argh....
tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: i will miss you after you leave.....
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
Today never meet shawn cause got no school.... sians....
went to work at that boring pasir ris which have no customers... very very boring....
the only thing that kept me entertain was talking to jasmine......
other than that really is like shit... that place is full of nonsense...
today finish work alr barry came... den i faster leave but in the end he called me to come back...
den cannot leave cause have meeting at pasir ris...
wth from 6.30 talk and talk and talk all the way till 8.....
den i was like no need to go shopping alr...
destroyed my day.... if im working at east coast i should be buying things alr la...
den the stupid joseph say want to come and find for us took so long to come....
he actually so stupid until take a mrt or something to ang mo kio den take a bus to pasir ris...
reason being cause he forgot that he can go to bedok inter den take a mrt which is so much faster...
he was a joke la...
me and jasmine just couldnt stop laughing at him....
barry started talking to me about going for class attachment and ways to become certified coach so he ask me to start attachment this friday so im going to be busy....
cause have to attend classes at east coast and also go to tampines to do attachment....
den barry fetch me to tampines and im suppose to go and buy clothes but too tired alr...
so i might as well just go home la...
today do nothing much so boring but tiring....
tmr is monday!! going to school den can see shawn...
haha...
like as if i miss him a lot like that...
but actually i do...
looking forward to going to school tmr....
Labels: cant wait to see you tomorrow....
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
Morning was too tired and i woke up late....
reach the shop at about 8.30..... late alr nvm... den realise shop computer down....
sian today everything have to write in docket book....
but its ok tough job joseph will always do it... thank you.... cannot update the time i came in for work...wth....
afternoon going to pasir ris to work.. not looking forward to it cause it is going to be very very boring....
so worried that barry will be the one who come and fetch me cause he will start nagging at me non-stop....
luckily the prson who came was sha and he was the crazy type...
but today dunno why forget to take everything...
firstly change bag when going to pasir ris den i realise i never brong shop key so got to go back home and take...
out of the expressway i realise that i left my wallet in the shop... sian... no money...
the worse is after work still have to go back to take my wallet... wth....
luckily i was on the way home so i borrowed money from mummy first that means at night got to return it to her... so stingy... give also cannot ma.....
so rush here rush there finally open pasir ris shop....
den sha ask me go buy food and i treat him pasta mania....
at pasta mania had to wait so long la......
den the whole day just waste my time there until barry come and ask me to do this do that....
den he say today i look so restless.... im sick lar... dun even know anything den angry with me....
suppose to finish work at 6 but he didnt let me off... im bloody hungry.......
drag and drag until 7 den he ask me claire what time are you suppose to finish work...
i tell him 6 den he ask me why i never leave.... obvious right you keep giving me things to do how to leave...
so he said i can leave after finishing wat im doing so i took my bag and left..
sha was suppose to finish at 7 but couldnt go off... haha.... serves him right for making fun of me....
although never do a lot of things today but it feels more tiring than working at east coast....
i miss all the ss crew there and especially idris... very long never talk to you alr.....
tmr still have to go to pasir ris... confirm its another boring day.....
today didnt get to see Shawn cause got no school..... wth why cant i have school 1 week 7 days....
den i can see him everyday... haha....
today he wake up so late la...
i working for dunno how long alr den he wake up....
im tired of everything so even if have bf also not going to control him anymore....
cant be bothered....
so my bf you can flirt with any girl do anything to her its not my problem....
just because i dun get to see Shawn today... i keep looking at my phone every few minutes waiting for him to reply my damn msg....
Shawn next time reply msg faster lei....
Labels: i want to see you every single day.....
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Friday, May 9, 2008
haha... today so happy...
Shawn told me that he left the school alr... so i thought since i was going back alone might as well take my time....
but then Shawn call me while i was in class that he came back to fetch me...
although he sound quite fierce and demanding but still so sweet...
cant believe he actually offered to fetch me home...
although i had to practically run to where his car was, but it was still very nice of him to fetch me...
but Shawn was a bit bhb to say that he is so nice to turn back and fetch me.... well....
i ask him why he came back, den he ask me not to ask so many questions...
wth la... i being concern also cannot ma....
haiis.....
but Shawn tell me that he is going to start fetching people to school to earn his petrol money...
my heart sank and i felt so sad..... cause im no longer the only one that sits in his car...
no choice la... cause im not his gf so also cannot ask for too much.... but im feeling very sad....
cause i know Shawn will only fetch girl....
im not special anymore..... sobs...
want to tell Shawn how i feel but i find that it is pointless.... cause i think he wont even bother about what i say.....
im so sad i feel like telling him how i feel but i cant....
its ok... i believe next week will be better cause everybody in class cares for me :)
Labels: how i wish you would listen to what i have to say
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Although its a friday i just felt so bad cause module didnt end on time. during presentation i almost fainted. so many things happen today.
yesterday confess to the stupid guy which i never think i will do.
i think it just make me feel more embarrassed then before.
well my life is just like that do something and after that regret.
i cant imagine i actually send that message to him.
anyway he still offer to fetch me to school.
1 week already he never show me any care for me other than on Wednesday.
I sms him that i almost fainted in class the only thing he replied was 'what you want me to do' all i wanted was for you to ask me if im ok... but you never. nvm.
This shows how much you care for me.... and you still say that you like me....whatever...
you just make me so miserable for the past few days...
you have been treating me diferently almost everyday i really dunno what you thinking...
Labels: do you know how miserable i feel....
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