Monday, June 30, 2008
today morning eddie going to cantonment police station to report...
so worried for him since the past few days...
today is especially and extremely worried...
although ping siang and him keep telling me that nothing will happen but im still very worried for him
im so scared that something will happen to him...
no mood to do anything in school today...
my mind is occupied by eddie's case today..
want to cry but cannot cry so i just have to swallow my tears...
wonder how i will react when i know the result..
i feel much more nervous then me going to collect my 'o' level results lar....
stupid eddie make me worry so much for him...
dunno why eddie and ping siang can treat it like nothing happen...
i know they are doing this because even if they worry also got no use...
but still i just can't treat it like nothing happen...
some more ytd when im eating dinner eddie had to say that it is the last dinner im eating with him...
at that time i really got no mood to eat liao....
in the end never finish and i gave the food to eddie...
although when i reach home i felt hungry le but never eat...
think of eddie's case only i got no mood to eat alr...
suddenly in class i miss eddie so much..
how i wish i can see him now...
im worried...
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
nowadays only go out with ping siang and eddie.
but so sad eddie not working anymore last sunday i almost fainted cause only 2 people working...
i felt so pathetic for once by the fact that it as a sunday and only me and another girl is working...
shop was like in a mess but i dun care...
its not my problem..
barry shouldn't have sacked eddie cause he really have no more crew to work alr...
dunno how to think..
somehow i just think making that decision does not benefit anybody...
miss working with eddie so much cause whenever he is around the shop wouldn't feel so dead..
although he doesn't do much of the work but at least when we are very busy he would still help out...
miss him so much while working even though i see him almost everyday
to think of this coming weekend i have to work alone without eddie really got no mood to work le..
haiis..
ytd was shawn's last day in school felt so sad because he is leaving and also because almost every thing that he do he will only tell me last minute...
so many things happen to me ytd that i really have no mood to be in school today...
mood really affects my health a lot...
just because im unhappy im feeling very sick really cannot concentrate in class...
leaving the school by second break...
feeling very giddy...
sian ar..
feel like quitting school or rather i feel like dying...
my life means nothing to me now..
i feel so hopeless...
sobs...
Labels: nobody wants me....
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
im sick and i took one day mc...
shop key with me so laura had to come to my house and collect the key from me...
sian having fever and i feel so weak...
went to find eddie today den after that he went to bedok inter with me..
call joseph and xiao xuan den they say to meet me at interchange...
so long never see them alr sia...
miss them so much....
they didnt know that eddie was with me den they actually call eddie ask him to go to east coast park...
when they meet me they saw eddie then xiao xuan look a bit angry with me...
didnt mean to lie to them but eddie didnt want any of them to know that he was with me...
den went to comic connection with joseph and then xiao xuan went to take a train...
joseph walk with us and his friend to the send the friend home..
den they walk me to my bus stop cause i told them that i need to go home ler...
den eddie took bus with me to go home and joseph also went to take bus home..
he needs to go home and rush his report...
so sian xiao xuan and joseph both not going for crew night...
nobody can pei me go...
anyway also dun intend to go de...
just going there to take my cheque den i leave le...
lack of money to use ar...
the most sian thing is that i got to go back to work tmr when im still on medication....
haiis nobody to replace me...
anyway today went to celebrate father's day with my daddy...
although it is too early to celebrate now but cause im working almost everyday so really got no time to celebrate it on other days....
sian la...
i miss you a lot but i dunno if you are going to go to school with me....
im praying hard that you will go with me to school on the first day...
will really motivate me to go to school...
anyway i miss you.
Labels: i miss you every moment....
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Monday, June 9, 2008
7-8-08
today go to work and it was raining...
all of the crew stay in the shop and barry called to inform me to put eddie off shift cause we dont need so many crew in the shop...
no customer anyway...
so eddie was just like sitting there looking at me and kim cleaning skates..
and also dunno when he take my phone go take pictures of himself...
actually suppose to have 3 photos but got one of it very ugly so i deleted it...
we clean skates until like 1 plus den barry came...
he brief us about the new class registration form then he ask me to organise the file with all our different classes inside...
i arrange everything le den i got nothing to do...
cause got so many crew with me outside for rental but got no customer...
luckily barry didnt stay for very long..
den at 3 i actually forgot to do cash out....
until like 3.30 den i realise that i didnt do but justin alr have customer buying skates..
so i got to wait until he finishes the transaction den i can do my cash out...
anyway justin got to know that he can leave when he just started work for 1hr cause of the stupid rain...
so good la...
den i ask idris i work since morning why i cannot go den he tell me that i can leave alr..
not bad...
suppose to end work at 5 but i end about 1hr earlier...
den i went out to eat dinner with him and his family....
go to ang mo kio and eat...
never let mummy know if not she will be angry bah...
she thought that i worked until 9 on that day...
today also suppose to meet hester after 6 to bring he for skating but in the end never cause i left ecp earlier den expected...
sorry hester...
8-6-08
today was working at ecp and there was the samsung event got so many ppl...
ecp for so long never been so crowded before...
there was a slalom competition in front of our shop at the rink...
but watching it half way barry called asking me to go to kallang and work...
den i realise that i am suppose to help out for a bdae party on ice....
wth...
im wearing shorts and t-shirt got no jacket...
went to ice-skating with the kids and it was so bloody cold in there..
my fingers couldnt move lar...
anyway the kids were so difficult to control cause they are so playful and they dun listen to what we say...
it was just so tiring and stressful getting them together and to get their attention...
den i had to work at kallang till 8 when i alr have something on after 6...
no choice got to postpone everything till after 8...
suppose to go back to ecp first but i didnt...
sian after one day of work and entertaining the kids, im dead tired.
so glad that monday is my off day or i will feel so shag at work...
anyway i really miss seeing you everyday even if you dun believe me...
Labels: i miss seeing you...
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Thursday, June 5, 2008
nothing better to do but take pictures.
isn't she cute???
today still wake up late den went down to east coast only at about 11.
got so many miss call from xiao xuan alr...
i know she call because i promise hesther to be there...
anyway hesther is my new friend 'god-sister'...
she is exempted from almost the whole skate camp programme cause of her attitude but i think mainly was because of azahri....
she almost cried because of azahri when he was talking to her...
so poor thing la...
so sad la...
den i went to macs to buy ice-cream for her...
den she started smiling..
so happy to see her smile...
xiao xuan says that i treat her like my sister...
but really mayb cause i dun have any siblings i treat her especially well...
haha..
she really very cute..
she say she want skinny jeans so i promise to buy her one...
i will pass it to her on friday....
hopefully i can...
anyway friday will be the last day i can see her le...
i think i will miss her a lot...
anyway today work was tiring cause only got eddie and me...
not say that he never help me but we got quite a few customers who is very troublesome...
but sales was ok today...
average la...
at night went to DTE with eddie to collect DTe shop key from Joseph...
tmr is his birthday so i got to take over the DTE shop for one day...
so boring...
tmr is a very long and tiring day cause got to work east coast in the morning and DTE in the afternoon till night..
wth...
anyway that means i have more money....
haha...
im tired...
Labels: i miss seeing you...
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Sunday, June 1, 2008
today morning wake up late...
suppose to go for the briefing for the camp but lazy to go...
take my time do my things den i went down to Ecp..
by the time i reach there briefing almost finish le..
so i might as well just dun go...
was at the shop talking to Jojo(you know who you are)...
he so poor thing everybody doing briefing he only one in the shop doing rental...
so help him out a bit den i was slacking there until barry saw me..
ask me to join the briefing but i see no point cause ending soon so i didnt go...
when everybody finish Shane ask me to go and buy lunch with him...
since i had nothing to do so i went with him...
he kept talking to me about my relationship prob which i really dun wish to talk about...
but have no choice la..
after all he is still my friend...
den he started talking about my attire den i a bit sian diao...
just because im not with jonathan den he got so much things to say about me...
wth....
anyway he told me something about Shawn which i think i know that it was going to be like that alr...
but what can i do???
i mean even if i know not like as if i can say anything...
you know what dun tell me anything about Shawn cause it has got nothing to do with me...
today going to check in for my chalet!!!
celebrating my bdae with skatessports ppl!!!!
so sad xiao xuan cannot come...
i will miss you de...
MY BIRTHDAY IS TMR!!!!
PEOPLE who read my blog must buy me a PRESENT k.. thanks... haha..
Labels: life without you feel so empty....
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