Thursday, July 24, 2008
this photos taken while we were walking out of the school cause we had a fire drill in the middle of second meeting... was really a waste of our time but at least we manage to make it fun by taking class photo while waiting for instructions that we can go back to class... the fire drill is just stupid and seriously a WASTE OF MY TIME!!!!!!!
today we had enterprise UT is the last UT for enterprise and dunno why i somehow had a feeling that im not going to do well even though i manage to finish everything before even the time ended... i have a strong feeling that i will fail this UT test. shall not think so much and stress myself up. its already over and i can't do anything about it anymore.
today as usual going to clementi to meet PS and its like my daily routine for weekdays... haha... we will go and eat dinner and after that he will send me home den he go home himself... anyway can't wait to see him later... today is like after so long the first time i stayed till the lesson ended for science... its been a long time since i sit in this class for so long for this module... really find this module very boring... can't wait to finish it soon... and HOLIDAYS is here... can't wait... but will miss my class W35G de... haha... finish school le... shall proceed to clementi soon.
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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
got to know that PS can choose either to stay in or stay out de... wakaka... happy ar... den like that if i free can see him everyday liao. but confirm is can meet him de cause everyday i finish at 4.30 he finish at 5 so i meet him at clementi mrt station den we go home together... haha... no need to go home alone le...like that i also dun need to wait till friday den i can see him le...
today's UT is like shit didnt finish like 2 full questions... haiis... like that confirm fail de lo... don't look forward to viewing the results. worried i need to repeat another yr sia... if repeat den might as well i quite school liao lar... haiis...
today i suddenly thought about the problem between me, eddie and PS... decided to make a choice so as to be fair to the two of them but i really don't know who i should choose... i mean both of them are equally important to me... really very difficult to decide... choosing either of them will hurt the other person and i might also hurt myself... sad... im so scared i make the wrong choice and after that i regret... some more i still have jonathan to consider which is like i must reply him before the 4th of august... haiis... stress ar... why people can have only one bf and i need to choose from 3 or rather 2...
i got no mood to study already. everyday think of all these problems is enough lo...
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Monday, July 21, 2008
19/07/08
woke up at 8 and i start work at 8... sian feel so tired... work till 3 den went to pw to meet PS.. we went to eat ban mian together... den we walk around pw just to waste time cause dunno where to go... some more almost everytime also go pw so also sian le... suppose to meet joseph to go out with him but only he and his brother at home so he cannot come out... PS went to marina square with me so crowded lar... the NDP preview got so many ppl watching... meeet PS's brother at marina square den we went to find for a place to eat cause his brother have not eaten... so walk everywhere also so crowded got so many ppl went to the food court also full de... sit at smoking area and eat... haiis... den we went to Far East Plaza cause his brother want to buy thing... raining den we need to walk in the rain and there is like so many ppl lo... probably because its a saturday... but when we walk into Far East like quite empty... after he done buying his things we went to find for a place to sit down whicjh is a smoking area but all the places all occupied... in the end went to BK and waste time there... slack until 9.30 like that den decided to leave... walk to the bus stop to take a bus home... just nice bus 14 came when we reach the bus stop so took bus 14 but take very long time to reach ar... reach bedok inter alr 11 liao lo... tired the next day have to work at 8 lei... luckily now no need to do a lot of things le... all the things other ppl do de... as usual barry forgot about my cheque until night time den he sms me to tell me that i can collect my cheque tmr at east coast....
20/07/08
today work till 1 only cause got a lot of crew so i ended work early and also can meet PS earlier... haha... meet him at pw in the end i still have to wait for him but for a while only... den we went to walk around at pw again... i think almost every week do the same thing... but we ate something different... we went to crystal jade to eat noodle... suppose to eat porridge de but go in i dun feel like eating le... haha... den we went back to my house cause need to get my bank acc number den can go and bank in my cheque... we went to my house downstairs slack till 6 plus den went up to my house to take my bank acc number... den we took bus to interchange again... PS ez-link card got no money le lei... everyday take bus and MRT like that his ez-slink card very fast no money... ke lian... so sorry i think its because of me thats why... haiis... we went to interchange he ask me to buy food for dinner den i ask him to go home from here dun need to send me home cause he got no more bus fare le... but he still say he want to go back with me... haha... den can spend more time with him lei... so fast today is sunday tmr he going to book in to new camp le... in clementi... he is back in clementi again... haiis... but ppl is stay out he is stay in de... haiis... make me miss him only... sad ar... must wait until friday den i can see him le... haiis.
21/07/08
today is MONDAY!!! monday blue... PS book in to camp today and im not in a good mood. as usual cause its a monday first day of school, start of the new week and PS leaves me till friday lo... Monday for me is always sad de... but before i even started lesson PS call and tell me that he might be able to meet me today... but not confirm. is sian de lo make me happy for a while den after that tell me not confirm... like that wait until confirm le den tell me i will feel better... now im just waiting for PS to sms me to tell me if he is able to meet me today... really miss him eh... Anyway today's ppt is screwed up de i think... i never prepare anything later confirm is dunno what to say de.. no choice its a monday... its a non-productive day... can't wait fro saturday to come den i can go shopping... PS promise to go with me le... hahahahaha.... got my pay den anyhow spend the money confirm very fast finish de... haiis... this is the way i spend my money... going to be my presentation soon don't look forward to it... haiis...
Labels: i miss you...
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
ytd was crew night but i didn't go... after work went to meet PS and we went to bugis... went to eat at pasta mania lei... haha... so crowded lo... went to walk around bugis and we went into action city to look around... den PS say he saw myy friend and i thought who in the end was actually the soft toy... carebear. lol. and he bought me one carebear orange in colour... haha... so cute... after that went back home cause most of the shops all close alr and i am suppose to be home... so we took a bus back to my house but then i dun feel like going back so early... so i went upstairs take my skates and come down again... like that wont get scolded... haha... so talk to PS until like 11 plus den i go home... haiis time pass so fast... he going to book in to camp soon lei... sian lo...
today he come to the shop to wait for me to finish work den he bought me bubble tea... wahaha my favourite oreo ice-blend... so long never drink liao lo... haiis tonight he going to book in alr la... den he got to go home by 6... sian... want to go with him to yew tee but i cannot go out... sian de lo... today dunno what happen idris got put off shift from work and he needs to pack his things and leave... suppose to feel happy but i actually felt sad knowing that he is going to leave... haiis... shop have very few people left alr... sian ar... this would also mean more responsibility for me to carry... haiis... dun look forward to going to work this weekend but looking forward to this coming friday... will miss PS so much lei... try to make myself busy throughout the whole week so that time will pass faster... monday going to TP, tuesday going to east coast with eddie go skate wednesday, thursday unknown, friday go yew tee!!! haha...
Labels: i will miss you...
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Friday, July 11, 2008
It's Friday!!!
today ping siang going to book out from camp le.... finally after so many days... miss him so much ar... i realise that when i have problems the first person i will think of is him cause no matter what he would always try to make me smile and make me feel better... haiis really miss him so much lei... can't wait to see him later... haha... ytd went to eddie's house and i hurt myself until i cried very badly... called ping siang and i started crying at that time really is feel like hugging him and cry lo... cause i know he would always comfort me de... dunno why i so stubborn eddie ask me dun look at his msges alr but i still look mayb i thought msg only so i wont be affected by it... but i think i still dun undertsand myself well... after i read the msg i immediately start to emo and i dun even have the mood to talk to him... although in front of him i treat it as i never see it but just dun want to talk to him but dunno why i purposely go to that msg and let him know i looking at it... his first reaction was to take the phone away from me... haiis i saw the msg le take away also got no use... while he was eating dinner i cried so badly suddenly i miss ping siang alot alot.. how i wish i can see him at that time... attitude eddie until i reach home and we never really talk... when im home i started crying again... all i could do is to cry... sms eddie to tell him that i actually saw the msg thats why i attitude him... really dunno what else i can say to him le... haiis... i see the need to let him know that i actually saw the msg... but i only make myself very very sad... i think i really mean nothing to him bah... sobs... bu ting hua and then make myself sad... haiis... today eddie never go to school cause his brother got enlisted into army... he going to tekong to eat chicken rice... lol. sad ar... i want to see ping siang now!!!!! i want to chabbot school... i want to go to yew tee... argh...
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Thursday, July 10, 2008
I Miss You!!!
ytd didn't get to see ping siang today cause he got no nights out... sad ar... after school went to TP to find my mum den we went home together... sian ar... for so long ytd was the first day i didnt go out till late at night... Ping siang called me to talk to me at night and we talk for very long neh... haha... mum was like very irritating cause she keeps disrupting me... trying to be a bitch... sometimes i really feel like giving her a tight slap and ask her to shut up... haiis... why is my mother so pathetic... its my phone whoever i want to talk to its my freedom... stop restricting my life... its making me hate her... after i put down the phone she actually nag at me... keep saying that dun you think your go-brother is caring and doing more than a god-brother should have done... like whatever... just trying to say that she thinks that he likes me... this all nonsense la... she dunno the story and the relationship of us then she anyhow say... i was like dam pissed off la... but got nobody to talk to so i cried again... eddie sms me when i was about to go to sleep and so i didnt sleep on time.. by 11.50 i was still awake smsing him... in the end the bitch in my house confiscated my phone... haiis no phone with me throughout the whole night... only saw my phone this morning... and as usual i woke up late... haha... today planned to meet eddie but i think he is angry with me for not replying my msg... haiis... wondering if he even wake up to go to school today... called him but he never pick up the phone lei... sms also never reply de... den today ping siang is busy in camp also never sms me... and he is not going to call me this afternoon sian... im going to be so bored and lonely... haiis... really have no interest for science alr and im still studying it... and i just hate school so much... but its ok tmr is FRIDAY!!! ping siang going to book out from camp le... tmr going to yew tee to find him... happy lei... finally after like so many days i can see him le... going his house to eat dinner... saturday have crew night and im not going... dun wan to waste my time there... stuppid barry confirm have things to say about me de... not going to spoil my mood because of him... also i rather meet ping siang and eddie go out and slack with them then going to the stupid crew night... but sad that i cannot take my pay.. could only take it the week after that cause barry gl... its ok de i can survive without my pathetic pay... its not like as if i will die without that pay... i miss eddie and ping siang so much... haha... im waiting for tmr to come... sian ar... today meeting eddie at his house cause he want to sleep and he is lazy to go out... lazy pig... haha... ping siang called me in the afternoon because of a msg that i send to him... that msg made the both of us stress and confused... well after all im stuck in the middle and i really dunno what i should do... haiis... whatever i do i would hurt somebody eventually which i really dun wish to... really dunno what is the right choice for me... maybe i should not make any decisions and also stop talking to ping siang and eddie and not reply jonathan maybe it will be better for all of us... by then i would be alone and probably i will just focus on my work and school... no friends = no life. but to hurt ping siang and eddie is something i dun wish to do the most... so i think i will make up my mind of what i want to do by this week... i would probably disappear from the 3 guys... haiis.... friends and relationship is both important to me but somehow somebody just can't understand it... 27hrs and 30min
Labels: 1 more day and i get to see you...
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Wednesday, July 9, 2008
its wednesday alr... mid of the week and it sucks... woke up late and i came to school late... FCUK. some idiot from the class called to play prank on me or something... alr fucking pissed off and they are doing that... fuck dun act like immatured kid that is retarded in mind or something... call me and ask me who am i... if you dunno who am i den you fucking call me for what... fuck off ppl... im not fun to play with... cb... dun fucking call and talk crap want to do that go do it to some other ppl... retards... not happy with me den scram... nobody ask you to talk to me... i seriously dun appreciate your kindness for calling me talking crap and tell me that im late for school... cause obviously i know it myself idiot... how i wish i can see ping siang now cause he would always be the one who cheer me up... stupid stay in camp... argh... two more days and i get to see him... miss him so much lei... i miss eddie too... praying hard that ping siang have nights out today den i can go to yew tee to meet him... hahaha.... but i think that is quite impossible... haiis... i need him to cheer me up lei... but he is busy... sian...smsed eddie but no reply... haiis dunno what he doing also... forget it... have a very strong urged to chabbot school.... got no mood to stay in this class anymore... wtf.... 56 hours.
Labels: 2 more days...
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Tuesday, July 8, 2008
went to watch Hancock today... it was dam funny... however sad to know that ping siang dun have any nights out other than weekends... thats dam sian lar.... anyway he got a new pet dog for training named Cereal... its brown and black in colour... i think he have his pet to care for than dun need to care for me le lo... hahaha.... everyday must wash the dog cage even on weekends... like that hor book out is equivalent of not booking out... cause everyday still must go back... sad ar... what kind of lj camp is this sia... haiis... hope after this course the next one will be stay out de... den like that i can meet him everyday... haha... sian la still got like 66hours and 30min before i can see him... book out only on friday at 6pm!!! hoping that tmr he have nights out den i can meet him tmr since eddie wee doesn't want to meet me... dunno why this few days he like have mood swings like that... humph... really can't wait for friday to come... you seem so near to me yet so far away from me... haiis... PS Ng dun have a pet dog le den forget me hor... later you care for the dog more than you care for me... like that you really is every friday book out and go home yourself lo... hahaha.... 66hrs 33min
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!!
went to meet ping siang at yew tee ytd... in my whole entire life the first time going there...my god stand there for 1hr plus waiting for him... the worse thing is im wearing my jacket and its so hot.... almost fainted standing there for so long... i reach there even before 5 and then i have been standing at the control station till 6 plus... so tired... leg numb ar... then we took a train back to paya lebar cause he need to go home and take his things... went to LJS to eat dinner and he never eat... only look at me eat after that i become fat lar... ping siang told me that he have nights out on some day of the week but don't know when.... sad ar dunno when is the next time i can meet him again lei... decided that no matter what time he booked out from camp on friday i will go to yew tee to wait for him... went to his house sit there wait for him to pack his things den he still go and bath i waited even longer... haiis... before we even leave the house my mother alr called to ask me to go home at that very moment... sians... while waiting for bus to come he actually ask me to take cab home cause scared that my mother will scold me... but i insist that i will take bus with him to paya lebar den i take train home... dun waste money den also can send him to paya lebar mrt station... reach the mrt station den i miss my train le and after that his train came.... he rushing for time to go back to the camp so i ask him to leave first i go back on my own... my back was like facing him cause seeing him will make me feel sad... haiis... dunno why when the train leaving le i started tearing and people at the mrt station stared at me... sad ar... haiis when will it be the next time when i see him again.... for so long ytd was the first day i went home alone... everytime is either he accompany me home or eddie and him will accompany me home... felt so lonely and empty... when i was at home ping siang called and talk to me but then can only talk for 10min... sian ar... miss him so much lei... nights out!!! hope that wednesday he have nights out den i can go meet him le... haha... 3 more days to book out from camp.
Labels: count down.... book out... book out...
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Monday, July 7, 2008
and he left me alone....
monday alr!!! so fast... haven spend enough time with him yet and he is going to camp le... today morning wake up late den 7 alr still haven leave the house... sian la... got no mood to do anything today... wake up alr know that it is going to be a bad day for me le... went to bath finding for clothes to wear then i realise i got no long pants to wear alr... in the end have to wear skirt neh... haiis dun dare to tell ping siang scared later he angry with me lei... on the way to school he called me and talk to me den when he is going to put down the phone i actually cried... dunno why just suddenly felt very sad... although im not going to see him only for 4 days but still it fees like it is a very long time to me... im used to meeting him everyday... reach school put down my bag covered my face with my jacket and i started crying.... dunno why just felt like crying so much... although he did sms me but well there is just a very weird feeling lar... i didnt want to cry so much but just cannot hold back my tears today... its like 4 days of not seeing you... some more today my luck is very very down... nothing seems to be the way i want it to be... whatever i took just cannot be in my hands and it drops on the floor even my hp... walk on flat pavement i also can tripped on my own leg... alomost fell down but didn't.... sad ar... today's topic in school is like another crap that i have to think about... went with my classmates to buy food den came back to class... the best thing is i receive a sms from ping siang saying that he meet me today at yew tee... i was surprised cause he just book in today den how come can come out... in the end he tell me that he going home thats why he can meet me today... i was like dam happy lar... get to see him today... hahahaha... can't wait for school to finish den i can go and meet him le... but he book out only at 6 and he need to be back in the camp by 11 i think... sian ar... i can only see him for about 4 hours... sians... 4 hours seems to be very long but it can also be a very short period of time only... intend to follow him back to camp den i go home lei but he dun allow... haiis still in school and still have like 2hrs plus more then i can see him... im very distracted alr got no mood to listen alr... just want the time to past faster den i can see ping siang le.... haha... that naggy uncle... haha... stop thinking that i wont miss you cause i do miss you. sad you cannot take my psp with you... your camp sucks sia...
Labels: stay in 5 days 4 nights....
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Sunday, July 6, 2008
its a sunday!!!!
today is the last day i can see ping siang le... tmr he going to camp alr... stay in for 5 days!!! haiis i will miss him de... morning i made up my mind that no matter what today i have to meet him cause last day before he go camp but he tell me he dun feel like going out.... i was like dam sian.... but after that dunno why he still say to meet me at parkway... haha... after work went to parkway to meet him den his brother was there too... haha... walk around in pw den we went to mcCafe to slack le... they go mcCafe smoke... den after that ping siang say to go to eddie's house cause he is alone at home... den on the stupid bus 15 ping siang keep asking me whether i will miss him.. i mean the answer quite obvious lei why still need to ask... i tell him the opposite answer and he thought that i really not going to miss him lei... why you so blur de... make me angry... i cry on the bus he ask me if i am crying i mean obvious right.... why you still ask me this kind of question.... still can ask why i cry... wth obviously is because he going to camp stay in for 5 days 4 nights lei... why you just dun understand still can keep asking me until i angry... den they played mahjong till 8 plus.... ping siang send me home den we went to the market downstairs my house to eat... after that he send me home and it is the last time im going to see him this week le.. sad... will miss you de... take good care of yourself and my psp kaes... dun say i never care for you lo...
Labels: kranji camp...
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Saturday, July 5, 2008
never go to work today cause i was very very lazy... didnt have the mood to work even though i woke up at 6 plus... sms idris to tell him that im sick den he sort of reprimanded me.. wth im a part timer want to take leave also cannot... bullshit lar... didnt want to go to work was mainly just because that monday ping siang going to stay in army camp le den can only see him on sat and sun.... last two days seeing him den i have to wait for another one week den i can see him... sians... lied to mum that im going to work den i went out... went off to eddie's thinking that later ping siang could come find me or something cause i will be meeting jonathan at 3.... really very long never see eddie le lei... went to his house he just wake up to open the door for me den he went back to sleep again... wth... at first wanted to pei him de.... but he is sleeping and i also cannot do anything so i decided to meet ping siang outside... went to wake eddie up to tell him that i going to leave le but then he dun allow me to leave... make ping siang wait for me for 20min.... haha P S NG im sorry for letting you wait for me for so long.... and so we went off to ping siang's house.... i know eddie will be unhappy with me but what can i do neh... he always like to give me the can't be bothered attitude... its just like i mean nothing to him or probably i really dun mean anything to him.... went to buy lunch with ping siang... he bought two and one was for me to eat.... im getting fat alr lo.... everyday eat 2 meals.... haiis... den i slack there until 2.45 den we took a bus to pw to meet jonathan.... den he left me at pw and i met jonathan on the third storey..... we walked around at pw den he ask me to go to the hair salon to ask how much to highlight my hair.... and so we went to choices but its was damn ex.... so we went to roxy square and total was $120 with treatment... hahaha... and so i highlighted my hair... jonathan stayed there with me till he had to go off for dinner at about 6 plus... after im done with my hair went off to ping siang's house again... haha.... at his house eddie and him decided to teach me how to play mahjong... haha... i feel like im a idiot for once cause i really dun get what they are talking about and most of the time i dunno what i am doing.... im a noob.... hahaha.... we ate dinner and the two of them send me home.... we took a cab back cause it was alr 10 den ping siang dun wan me to go home late.... but in the end i reach home le mum ask me to go and buy durian... haha... den they waited for me downstairs and we went to inter together... haha... in the end never sell le so i went back.... i took a bus back alone cause ping siang's bus card got no more money.... haiis... reach home le saw eddie's msg is really saddening... all his msg that he send to me was like so sacarstic.. ask him if he is angry he say no... but somehow quite obvious that it is a yes lei.... anyway talk to ping siang until 1 plus den i sleep.... tired ar.... i like my hair!!!
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Friday, July 4, 2008
3rd July
Happy Birthday to Weiliang!!!
today we had a class outing together!!! went to banquet to eat 'breakfast/lunch' den orange and sumin went to buy cake for weiliang... haha... we sang birthday song for them at banquet!!! attracted so much attention... haha... den we decided that we should go and catch a movie since we can get it at student price.. its cheap!!! and we went to watch WANTED!!! i can say that its a nice show dun mind watching it again if there is people who wants to watch it... haha... its been so long since i watch a movie... everyday busy working... we went to sing k in the evening each person $15... but only me, weiliang, eileen, yiling and fujie went.... but i had to leave by 5 cause im meeting ping siang at clementi mrt.... wah everyday meet him ar... haha... from clementi i went to bugis for my facial and he went home alone... after facial ping siang and eddie meet me at bugis den suppose to go and eat but all close le... so we took mrt back to bedok and then we ate at bedok inter the market... got this crazy uncle keep pestering us for the metal can cause we bought two can drinks... so irritating lar... they took a bus back home with me but the white plate take so long to come.... two green plate come le but no white plate so we decided to take the green plate bus since dun have a lot of people... today eddie send me up to my house... thought the person will be ping siang lei... because the last time it was ping siang who send me up to my house... haha... anyway who send me up also the same.... went home wanted to use laptop den ping siang sms me say i need to sleep le so never update blog never update friendster...
4th July
today is ping siang's last day in clementi camp le... and it is also going to be my last day going to clementi mrt to meet him le...two weeks passed so fast... next week onwards nobody go home with me and eat dinner with me le... ping siang is going to a new camp and it is STAY IN!!! sucks sia... can only meet him on weekends when im working... haiis... will miss him de...he is going for another two weeks course so poor thing... im going to have my freedom to do anything i want but somehow i just dun feel happy... cause won't get to see him everyday le... haiis... today morning come to school without my psp for the first day... ever since i bought it, it has never leave me before... but its ok cause i know its safe... lend it to ping siang cause he pei me take train to bugis den he take that train home alone... see him like very bored so ask him to keep my psp... he going to return it to me after two weeks later... i allowed him to bring it to camp cause stay in den he wont get to see me le... haha.. he scared he will lost my psp but i have trust in him lar... so if really lost le i wont blame him de... today must leave the class by 4 to go to clementi to meet him... last day le... den after that i suppose we going to meet eddie bah... dunno whether i need to go to east coast and take key tmr... actually dun feel like working tmr... want to zhao work... mayb because everytime go work everytime kena scolding now think of going also sian le... one day i might just quit... haha... say only la... today really not feeling well... having headache and feeling very giddy... haiis... going to fall sick again... sorry to make you worried...
Labels: where are you when i need you the most???
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008
im being grounded!!!!
must go home right after school...
no life ar...
i want to go out and meet ping siang and eddie!!!!
go home got nothing to eat and nothing to do... sian...
today is a wednesday suppose to meet eddie at his house de den after that ping siang will come...
but now i can't even go to clementi to wait for ping siang...
sad ar...
this week i wont get to see eddie le..
sians...
maybe i should skip one day of work den i go and meet him.... haha...
i shall see if i can take leave bah...
try to talk to idris and see what i can do bah...
i want to go out!!!
i have alr plan what im going to do at home since im not allowed to go out...
shall just go home and sleep!!!!
den i wont break my promise today cause i will sleep very very early...
sometimes im just wondering if my mother have mental problem...
she always use stupid methods to keep me at home to accompany her...
if she thinks that i will talk to her den sad cause i wont....
im going to do my things and go to sleep...
or mayb will talk to ping siang for a while den after that sleep...
today eddie wont msg me le bah...
thats what he tell me ytd that he is going to sleep for the whole day today....
sad lar...
things that i want to tell him i still haven say it out...
althouggh ytd he told me the very lame way how i should tell him but there are some things that are just so difficult to say out...
its not i dun want to tell you but i dunno how to tell you.
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Tuesday, July 1, 2008
ytd was such a f*cked up day...
after school went to clementi to meet ping siang..
suppose to take the same train as him but he took the wrong train..
he actually took one train earlier then me...
joke sia... make him walk around in the train just to find for me...
sian i had to take the train to paya lebar alone and until then we realise that we are in different train...
laugh at ourself.. so stupid...
on the way to ping siang's house before i meet eddie, got so many things i want to tell him...
i thought when i reach ping siang's house he would also reach there alr...
but sad he didnt and when i call him he tell me he is not going to come so early...
i felt dam sad cause i wont be able to see him for long...
at first i wanted to wait until he come den i eat dinner with him..
but call him and sms him he got no reply so i decide to eat with ping siang...
felt angry and disappointed in him as i expected to see him there at about 7 plus...
when he came i just dun feel like talking to him even though i have a lot of things to tell him...
by the time he finish eating i alr need to go home le...
so ping siang and him fetch me home...
but he sat at the front of the bus and me and ping siang was at the back...
still we didn't talk..
i felt worse on the bus...
ping siang tried to entertain me cause he knows that im sad...
although what he do made me laugh but i still felt very sad...
when we are at the interchange eddie still didn't talk to me...
we went to top-up ez-link card den buy my phone top-up card..
then they send me home..
normally eddie will be the one who send me up to my house..
but ytd he actually ask ping siang to send me up...
i felt so sad by his reaction but never say anything...
however i hurt ping siang indirectly....
felt so sorry but it was alr too late...
somehow i felt that going back to jonathan would be a better choice for me...
tried to sms eddie to talk to him but he lecture me while smsing me cause i hurt ping siang badly...
i didnt mean to do it but what can i say its alr too late...
i tried talking to eddie but he didnt try talking to me so i felt dam sian...
some more when im at home i quarreled with my mum because of the two of them...
it made me felt worse...
suppose to borrow money from her but she insist that i need to solve my own problem myself...
wanted to cry but i can't break my promise...
how i wish eddie could sms me but he didnt and he will never sms me...
tried to sms him in the morning and he actually replied...
ask him why he never sms me ytd night and his reason was because very late alr and im sleeping so he never sms me...
but last time no matter what time is it he will still sms me...
well anything he want to say..
but im just very very sad...
while talking to ping siang today i felt so sorry about what i have done to him ytd....
i feel like meeing eddie today before i meet ping siang..
if not i think i will vent my anger on ping siang again....
but somehoe i couldnt contact either one of them...
my phone has got problem again...
argh....
i f*cking feel like running away from home....
i just cant stand the nonsense that i get from my mother anymore...
damn it...
life is just so difficult for me....
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