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Thursday, July 10, 2008

I Miss You!!!
ytd didn't get to see ping siang today cause he got no nights out... sad ar... after school went to TP to find my mum den we went home together... sian ar... for so long ytd was the first day i didnt go out till late at night... Ping siang called me to talk to me at night and we talk for very long neh... haha... mum was like very irritating cause she keeps disrupting me... trying to be a bitch... sometimes i really feel like giving her a tight slap and ask her to shut up... haiis... why is my mother so pathetic... its my phone whoever i want to talk to its my freedom... stop restricting my life... its making me hate her... after i put down the phone she actually nag at me... keep saying that dun you think your go-brother is caring and doing more than a god-brother should have done... like whatever... just trying to say that she thinks that he likes me... this all nonsense la... she dunno the story and the relationship of us then she anyhow say... i was like dam pissed off la... but got nobody to talk to so i cried again... eddie sms me when i was about to go to sleep and so i didnt sleep on time.. by 11.50 i was still awake smsing him... in the end the bitch in my house confiscated my phone... haiis no phone with me throughout the whole night... only saw my phone this morning... and as usual i woke up late... haha... today planned to meet eddie but i think he is angry with me for not replying my msg... haiis... wondering if he even wake up to go to school today... called him but he never pick up the phone lei... sms also never reply de... den today ping siang is busy in camp also never sms me... and he is not going to call me this afternoon sian... im going to be so bored and lonely... haiis... really have no interest for science alr and im still studying it... and i just hate school so much... but its ok tmr is FRIDAY!!! ping siang going to book out from camp le... tmr going to yew tee to find him... happy lei... finally after like so many days i can see him le... going his house to eat dinner... saturday have crew night and im not going... dun wan to waste my time there... stuppid barry confirm have things to say about me de... not going to spoil my mood because of him... also i rather meet ping siang and eddie go out and slack with them then going to the stupid crew night... but sad that i cannot take my pay.. could only take it the week after that cause barry gl... its ok de i can survive without my pathetic pay... its not like as if i will die without that pay... i miss eddie and ping siang so much... haha... im waiting for tmr to come... sian ar... today meeting eddie at his house cause he want to sleep and he is lazy to go out... lazy pig... haha... ping siang called me in the afternoon because of a msg that i send to him... that msg made the both of us stress and confused... well after all im stuck in the middle and i really dunno what i should do... haiis... whatever i do i would hurt somebody eventually which i really dun wish to... really dunno what is the right choice for me... maybe i should not make any decisions and also stop talking to ping siang and eddie and not reply jonathan maybe it will be better for all of us... by then i would be alone and probably i will just focus on my work and school... no friends = no life. but to hurt ping siang and eddie is something i dun wish to do the most... so i think i will make up my mind of what i want to do by this week... i would probably disappear from the 3 guys... haiis.... friends and relationship is both important to me but somehow somebody just can't understand it... 27hrs and 30min

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