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Tuesday, July 1, 2008

ytd was such a f*cked up day...
after school went to clementi to meet ping siang..
suppose to take the same train as him but he took the wrong train..
he actually took one train earlier then me...
joke sia... make him walk around in the train just to find for me...
sian i had to take the train to paya lebar alone and until then we realise that we are in different train...
laugh at ourself.. so stupid...
on the way to ping siang's house before i meet eddie, got so many things i want to tell him...
i thought when i reach ping siang's house he would also reach there alr...
but sad he didnt and when i call him he tell me he is not going to come so early...
i felt dam sad cause i wont be able to see him for long...
at first i wanted to wait until he come den i eat dinner with him..
but call him and sms him he got no reply so i decide to eat with ping siang...
felt angry and disappointed in him as i expected to see him there at about 7 plus...
when he came i just dun feel like talking to him even though i have a lot of things to tell him...
by the time he finish eating i alr need to go home le...
so ping siang and him fetch me home...
but he sat at the front of the bus and me and ping siang was at the back...
still we didn't talk..
i felt worse on the bus...
ping siang tried to entertain me cause he knows that im sad...
although what he do made me laugh but i still felt very sad...
when we are at the interchange eddie still didn't talk to me...
we went to top-up ez-link card den buy my phone top-up card..
then they send me home..
normally eddie will be the one who send me up to my house..
but ytd he actually ask ping siang to send me up...
i felt so sad by his reaction but never say anything...
however i hurt ping siang indirectly....
felt so sorry but it was alr too late...
somehow i felt that going back to jonathan would be a better choice for me...
tried to sms eddie to talk to him but he lecture me while smsing me cause i hurt ping siang badly...
i didnt mean to do it but what can i say its alr too late...
i tried talking to eddie but he didnt try talking to me so i felt dam sian...
some more when im at home i quarreled with my mum because of the two of them...
it made me felt worse...
suppose to borrow money from her but she insist that i need to solve my own problem myself...
wanted to cry but i can't break my promise...
how i wish eddie could sms me but he didnt and he will never sms me...
tried to sms him in the morning and he actually replied...
ask him why he never sms me ytd night and his reason was because very late alr and im sleeping so he never sms me...
but last time no matter what time is it he will still sms me...
well anything he want to say..
but im just very very sad...
while talking to ping siang today i felt so sorry about what i have done to him ytd....
i feel like meeing eddie today before i meet ping siang..
if not i think i will vent my anger on ping siang again....
but somehoe i couldnt contact either one of them...
my phone has got problem again...
argh....
i f*cking feel like running away from home....
i just cant stand the nonsense that i get from my mother anymore...
damn it...
life is just so difficult for me....

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