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Sunday, November 23, 2008

what a bad day it is for me today... woke up late for work and the worse thing was the key is with me... everybody was waiting for me to go and open the shop... damn... first thing in the morning saw baby's message saying that i was irresponsible like as if i purposely didn't want to turn up for work... i felt damn sad cause didn't expect baby to say that of me... suddenly i felt like i can't trust anybody anymore cause even baby can't trust me... it was my fault to wake up late but right after im awake i answered their calls and told them where i was... i wasn't irresponsible... im placed last between baby's friend, work and me... i can't believe this is how important i am to him... he said without work den he got no money no future den cannot have me... am i that expensive?? this few days baby's words are very hurting... he said i was selfish, irresponsible, say i make people angry, scolded me cb... what else can he scold me? why not say im irritating, tell me he don't like me... maybe if he finish scolding all at once i would feel better den i won't be tortured for a few days hearing how mean can he be to me... whats wrong with baby this few days? where is baby whom i used to know to be very nice to me, make me feel that im always placed first in everything, who will tolerate me and think for me... baby has never been so mean to me before not ever since i know him till now... after work was supposed to go out with baby but i decided not to cause he said he was having a headache and to prevent him from saying that im selfish for not giving him his time i decided not to ask him out... its not like i dun want to see him but i just don't dare to ask... anyways without asking i alr know what is the answer... reached home thought mummy will be home to talk to me but when i was home nobody was around and mummy didn't even call to ask where i am today... nobody wants me alr? not even baby wants me... im just a pathetic person whom nobody wants... i suppose if anything happen to me nobody will bother... whats the point of treating everybody so nice just to make everybody happy and like me when people doesn't appreciate it... like baby i treat him so nice but he still says mean things to me... i didn't mean to hang his call on purpose but he claims that i did it out to irritate him... wow... thanks... that made my day since morning... what a nice start seeing people saying that i am irresponsible and that i irritate people... who can come and comfort me now??? im so pathetic... i miss baby whom i used to know... the piglet that was very nice that will never say anything mean to me...

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